metanoia - 5SOS

quarante trois

m i c h a e l

I had just got done dropping off Kylie, which was difficult considering she was highly intoxicated. I couldn't help but wonder what had happened to Brynn, she was no where to be seen after I had went to dance with Kylie. It worried me a bit considering she was pretty drunk, and Calum is usually the one to always save her, but most likely he was with his friends or even James. Calum and James I guess are a thing? Or maybe even a fling? They've always been hanging out, almost another Luke and Carter, speaking of them I wonder what happened with them. It seemed as if everyone had been in relationships, except for me. Even Ashton's got his hippie like girls who basically bow down to him. That's the problem with me, I don't date just anyone, heart break is my biggest fear, and I wish not to experience it. My problematic mind was interrupted as a sharp buzz came from my pocket. I had still been parked in Kylie's driveway, so I make my way out as I answer the phone.

"Michael?" Came a raspy and low voiced Brynn. "Hey, what happened to you? Did you leave the party or something?" I ask hoping she wasn't at the party waiting for someone to pick her up, because I was more worried about getting Kylie's drunk self home, considering she tried locking me in a bathroom. I heard little sniffles from the line, and it made me worry, "I called Luke and he took me home, but he had to go home since it was late, and I'm home and alone, and can you please just come over?" Her speaking pace started to speed up which frightened me a bit, and she sounded as if she could really use a shoulder to cry on, and not to mention being drunk isn't making it any better. "Yeah, I'll be right over." With that we said our goodbyes, and I made a U turn, which was probably illegal from where I was driving, but shit happens.

Arriving to Brynn's house, all the lights were out except for her bedroom light. Her mom was also always absent, so Brynn basically lived on her own. Guessing she saw my head lights, so she came to the window and sent me a forced smile, "Door's unlocked." She yelled down as I step out of my car. I just send her a smile and nod my head as I walk down the perfectly paved walk way of hers. It's been a while since I've actually been at Brynn's, it's actually been a while since me and Brynn actually hung out, considering I used to basically be her right hand. I struggle making my way upstairs, since I had no clue where the light switches were. Her house was pretty creepy all blacked out, so I sped up my pace making my way to her room.

There she sat on the floor, leaning against her bed with her head up and resting on the mattress. Her eyes were blood shot red and her hair looked as if she got into a fight with a gorilla. I sat next to her and she immediately fell into my arms, but all I could hear sniffles and no cries. "Did you know? About Calum and James?" My heart sank when I heard her ask that, and it will probably drown after I tell her my answer, "Brynn, I'm not going to lie to you, but everyone knew..." I didn't want to break it to her, but I didn't want to lie because she obviously knew. "Oh God." She breathed out and squeezed my shirt collar even tighter. "How fucking stupid can I get? She's always around him, I should have known something happened between them." I had no idea what to do or say, I'm not Dr. Phil, but I searched my mind for something to say. "You're not stupid," I started, but tried harder to add onto that, "You also know their both in the wrong, but I can tell you for a fact, that Calum is still taking this harder than you think." I say in his defense, which I had no idea why the hell I did that, "But don't beat yourself up because of it, it's not worth it. It's over and done with, and there's nothing to do but let it go." I finish off. I could feel his body loosen as she sits up from my chest. "I don't know how to move on Michael. I've been cheated on twice, by two people I thought I loved. God how do they hate each other but are basically exactly the same." She cried out. I could tell that she was still hurt from Xander and Calum, and I had no idea what to say, considering that never happened to me. "Xander cheated on you on purpose, he wanted to. Calum didn't. There's a huge difference between them." My words caused her to go silent, I knew this was hard for her, but she had to realize that the damage is done, "It's your choice on how you want to move on from this problem, Never speak to both of them ever again, or Forgive, but never forget." I gave her choices, but I preferred the last one, "If you were able to forgive Xander, someone who intentionally cheated on you with many girls, you sure as hell can forgive Calum." I finish, making myself feel like Dr. Phil after all the advice I spit out. "You're right." She replied with a soft smile, and pulling me into a hug.