metanoia - 5SOS

vingt-huit

c a l u m

"Peyton! Come on, we're leaving." I heard her mom yell for Peyton from downstairs. I look over at Peyton who looked a tad bit uncomfortable, what was wrong with her. This whole conversation was a bit awkward as well, she was nervous the whole time. I wave off to her as she makes her way out of my room and downstairs and out the door.

I sit back and pull out my phone which had been dead. After plugging it in it turned on a minute later and my phone blew up with notifications. Three missed calls from Luke, but nothing from Brynn. I really hope she wasn't still mad at me, I do feel bad, I didn't expect her to invite me to her dads. I call Luke back to see what he needed.

"Hey, whats up?" I ask. Then I heard his monotoned voice, not the 'I honestly don't give two shits to talk,' tone, the 'fuck my life,' tone.

"Hey Calum, where have you been?" He said through the phone, clearing his throat right after. What could have happened while I was gone. "Have you talked to Brynn?" He asks.

"No, why? Is something wrong? What happened?" I say starting to worry.

"Calm yourself. Just talk to her. You guys need to work something out." He explains. His words made my heart want to fall out of my chest. Recently Brynn has been more on the edge ever since Peyton came around, but I don't know why. Was it jealousy? Why would it be? Peyton has no chance with me, she's not my type, nor do I like her, I want Brynn.

"Alright, I'll stop by her house. How have you been, is that why you called me?"

"No, I'll...Never mind, I'll get over it. Bye." And with that he hung up, confusing me, something was defiantly up with him, I know Luke, but right now my mind was focused on Brynn.

l u k e

Although I lied to Calum, I just didn't want to talk about it. I hate all this relationship shit, it was so much easier when I didn't care for anyone but myself, now I care for three people, fuck my life. I fall back onto my bed as I grab my head. I look over at my phone, wanting to text Carter, but I had to give her space, I never said I didn't want to not talk to her, but I had to break it off before I hurt her. I've hurt enough people before. The urge of me smacking my head off my steering wheel was real. I check my phone, which was dry as ever, which it never used to. I should probably hang out with Ashton, he's always doing something fun. As I pull my phone out to text Ashton, I heard a slight knock at my bedroom door. I open the door to see Carter standing with a smile, this smile made me confused.

"Hey, didn't want to bother you, but I thought you'd like this back." She says pulling out the spare key I gave her a couple weeks ago. I down at her a bit to make eye contact, but couldn't force myself to, so I quickly grab the key and turn my back.

"Thanks. I'll talk to you later." I struggle to say with no tone in my voice.

"Alright, bye Luke." Were her last words as she walked out of the door. She didn't seem too affected to see me. When I see her my heart drops and I don't know how to react, am I doing something wrong? I look down at the key that had once been hers, and on the back was her initials with the emoji she would always draw on her papers.

"God I really need to do something." I say to myself as I sit on my bean back, and twirl the key between my fingers.

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b r y n n

I step out the shower hoping that would relieve my stress, but after I turn the music off and enter my bedroom, all the thoughts hit my head at once. I don't know what I was more upset about, my mom being hard headed about me going to see my dad, or Calum with that weird little girl. Sometimes I think is Calum really that oblivious to see why it bugs me so much when he's around her? Does my mom know how selfish she is being?