metanoia - 5SOS

trente quatre

b r y n n

"Why are you staring at me?" I ask disgustedly as Xander continues to drive. He just smiles and shakes his head. "We're here. You get the green tea, I'll get the other stuff." I say getting out the car and immediately grabbing a shopping cart, he hadn't made a single move. "Go on now. You don't need me holding your hand like a little boy." I joke and make my way towards the dairy area. Searching for my dads Greek yogurt and Kristen's chocolate milk. As I lean over to pick up the yogurt and stand up, I felt someones body against my back. I quickly turn around and see Xander placing green tea packets into the cart, along with other things such as Cheese its and gold fish.

"Saw these and got hungry, hope you don't mind." He says with a cheesy smile, which reminded me of Calums smile.

"You're like a child." I chuckle and carry on down the isle. I check my phone hoping for a good morning text, considering it was about 11, and Calum gets up around this time, but my phone was pretty dry.

"Hi Xander." I heard a feminine voice come from behind me. I turn to see a random girl waving at Xander and giggling off with a couple of her friends. It felt pretty weird being in an area like this, it was so different, we all lived so far from each other.

After checking out, Xander helped me carry bags out to the car, although he made me carry the heavier items, while he carried things like soap and candy bars. I sit in the passenger seat waiting for Xander to come back as he puts the cart away. Instead of getting in the car he just looked at me through the window. "You drive yet?" He asks as he throws the keys onto my lap.

"I have two more months until I can take my test." I say handing the keys back, but he didn't accept. "Xander, I'm not driving. You're not old enough to be in the car while I drive." I say as he makes his way to my side of the car, and opening the door.

"And this is how many fucks I give. Come on, It'll be fun." He says grabbing my arm and pulling me out of the car. "Come on, don't be a coward." He laughs as he seats himself in the passenger seat. I sigh and make my way to the drivers seat.

"Don't be mad if I crash on purpose by accident." My comment caused him to laugh, and me to smile. I fixed my seat and mirrors, and start up the engine. "Ok, now which one's the gas, and which ones the break." I joke, causing him to jerk up, "I'm just kidding, I'm not dumb." With that I take off. I knew my way around this area, considering we lived so close to the market.

I felt my phone vibrate once, causing my heart to race, hoping it were Calum, but I couldn't check. I felt it vibrate once more, and again, and again...and five more times. I started to get worried, maybe something wrong happened. What if something happened, what if he needed me to talk right now. My mind went on and on worrying about the outcomes. It was hard being away from the group with these problems that were left unsolved, or solved half ass'd.

"Brynn!" I quickly snap out of my daze as Xanders sharp voice pierced the inside of my ear and he leaned over to grab the wheel, and I quickly step on the break. "God Brynn you almost hit that little boy." He says trying to catch his breath still hovering over me.

"Well, he was in my way." I say as I continue down the street.

"He was on the sidewalk." Xander argued back as he slid into his seat. "Are you ok?" Instead of answering I just kept my focus on the road.

c a r t e r

Instead of staying home last night, I somehow ended up at Lukes house, oh yeah, because Calum was a complete and utter mess. For Brynns sake, I told her I'd be Calums mother until she got back. I left Brynn a couple of texts, hoping she would answer back asap, but instead my texts were not being open. I walk in front of the tv that had been shut off, and face the three boys on the couch. "So let me get this straight. You guys were drinking, decided to play sacrifice on the steps, pushed Calum, and now he's got that ugly bump on his forehead." I say placing my head into the tips of my fingers, trying to keep cool.