Breaking stones (Justin Bieber )

(chapter 17)Angels Die To

(chapter 17)Angels Die To

Justin's POV

I was about to go for an interview for MTV, didn't know what is was about, but I didn't really care I just wanted to get it over with, I wasn't having a good day, scooter was pressuring me to start up my tour again, my mom was being horrible to me and everyone just seemed like they had it in for me today. I was feeling really low today and I wasn't really looking forward to this interview

" Justin we need you on set " some lady said I sighed and followed her to the set, I sat down on the sofa and someone touched up my makeup, I sat their and the the interview started

" hi Justin, I'm max from MTV " he said I put on my fake smile

" hey max, its nice to be here " I said trying my best to be happy

" its nice to have you here " he said with his smug smile I honestly felt like punching this guy in the face

" thanks " I said sitting up

"so Justin, you've recently started your Believe tour right" he asked

"yeah that's right, and it going great, I love it "I  said with a smile

"that's great to hear, so when are we going to hear a new album from you, I'm sure your fans are waiting" he asked

" I'm not to sure I have some new stuff but, I don't know if is ready to be let out yet but hopefully soon" I said, I had music but music I only wanted ocean to hear because it was all for her

"well we are all looking forward to when you release some new stuff " he said " so its been all over the news and papers, about you going out of control, whats it all about ?"he asked

"well max loads of things are on my mind at the moment and I'm not going out of control I'm just doing things I want to to, I don't want to be what everyone else wants me to be, so I rebel" I said with a gulp

" well we heard that it was due to a heartbreak,is that true?" he asked I felt a lump in my throat I didn't answer for a little

" well max I don't really like to talk about that side of my life " I said bravely

" why not?, it was a girl called ocean gold right ?, you left her for fame and now you regret it, that's pretty messed up" he said smugly I glared at him the fake smile on my face disappeared, I clenched my first tightly " so you chose fame over your girlfriend, how did she feel about it, pretty gutted right " he said I got up

" I cant fucking do this excuse me " I said I ran of the set and the camera followed me to my dressing room " move the fucking camera out of my face right now " I shouted

I slammed the door, everywhere I went ,they brought up ocean and why we broke up, I couldn't handle talking about her and especially when he interviewer was being a prick about it all.

scooter stormed in

" what the hell was that all about " he shouted

" I just want to fucking go home I cant stand this anymore " I cried, I literally cried everyday now I just couldn't not cry.

" your fucking things up for yourself, get over ocean already"he shouted I pushed past him and walked to the door,

" I cant just get over her, remember with Hannah it took nearly 2 years, I'm going home" I snapped I walked out of the room and the out of the building, I got in my car and drove home. I ran upstairs into my room and sat on my bed, I was so stressed, so annoyed,so broken, so lonely.

I walked into my bathroom and wrested my hands on the mirror, I couldn't do this anymore, I couldn't handle life any more,how could I live without the love of my life, without my soul mate.that was it I didn't want to live anymore, the pressure of this life was to much, everything I had to deal with was to much,I hated living without her and the things I once loved to do, I learnt to hate, I used to be the first one to find the good things in a bad situation but now im was the first to cry and freak out when things went wrong, what was wrong with me, was did I have to fell like this, falling in love was meant to be the best thing that ever happens to a person, but falling in love for me was the hardest thing I ever had to, I guess thats why I was scared to fall in love with ocean, I guess that was why I was scared to show the real me to her, becasue I didnt want her to hurt me, but she ended up hurting, but it wasent really her fault it was mine, I didnt chose her, but how I wish I did. this was the end and it was time to tell people.