Breaking stones (Justin Bieber )

(chapter 36)Starting To Forget

 chapter 36 Starting to forget 

 Justin’s POV

My emotions were everywhere, I didn’t know how to feel about what had happened, it was anger, hate, love, heartbreak and joy mixed together and I felt like I was going to explode, I had just broken up with my fiancé who I loved more then anything in the world and she told me that we had children together, how the hell was I mean to feel.

Everything that happened sobered me up a lot, so I got into my car and drove to the store to get some things for the baby's. As I took everything to the check out the cashier looked at me strange 

"There for my aunt” I said plastering a fake smile on my face, she raises her eyebrows and gave me a smile. I took all one of the things back to my car and then drove home, I had to tell my mom and my manager, they would know what to do. As soon as I got home I phone up Jason my manager, to come over.

"Hey Jason, I need you to come to mine its really important " I said 

- Yeah okay, I’m just pulling up now I was on my way anyway - I heard him pull up outside of the house my mom was already sitting down on the sofa and then Jason walked in and sat down he looked very concerned.

“Hey, what's so important?" Jason asked with a sigh

“It’s me and Ocean" I said then I cleared my throat as the tears filled my eyes slowly, the built up and one rolled down my cheek

“What’s happened Justin" my mom asked looking distressed at the fact that I was crying.

“Mom I don’t know how or why she would do this to me “I cried, she got up and hugged me tight 

“Do what hunny “she asked 

"I’m a dad” I sniffed 

"Oh My Gosh Ocean is pregnant” she said letting go of the warm hug she was giving me 

"No mom, it’s not like that she’s already had the baby’s, she gave birth to them in that  time me and her where apart for; when scooter said I couldn’t see her anymore, but she knew she was pregnant before that even happened and she didn’t even tell me " I cried 

"OH MY GOSH! Are you serious, she kept your own children away from you all this time, there better be a logical explanation for this?" my mom practically shouted 

“she asked me one time while she was pregnant, what would I do if she was pregnant right now and well I said I would ask her to get rid of it because I wasn’t ready for a baby and then when I chose fame over her she thought that I didn’t care about her and she thought that I obviously wouldn’t care about the baby's so she didn’t tell me and well she decided to tell me tonight when I broke up with her " I said sitting down 

“Dude that’s really fucked up" Jason said” She’s really fucked up" he added with a nod, I looked at him, I usually would shout and argue of anyone said this about Ocean but he was right she was fucked up, she had something wrong with her head because no sane person would ever do this to anyone

"She’s a mess but I love her so god damn much" I said and then the tears came back into my eyes "I love her so damn much” I cried 

“So where are the baby’s?" Jason asked 

“Australia " I muttered 

“Well let’s go and get them “my mom said looking extremely stressed, but she also looked so disappointed, I think she was disappointed that Ocean would do this, but I had a feeling there was something my mom wasn’t telling me.

“tomorrow mom, I need to rest" I said I stood up and kissed my mom on the cheek and went upstairs to my room and I just lay there on the floor where me and Ocean Lay that one night "I love your lips, I love your eyes, I love your warm heart, I love you body, I love your personality, I love you.." I muttered to myself, me and Ocean had stopped saying that to each other and I missed it dearly, I missed her, I missed the way we used to be, but this whole situation was way out of line. My heart hurt more than it had ever hurt before, I felt myself slowly sinking back into the person I used to be and I really didn’t want to be at that point again, I didn’t want to be at the point of hating my life and wanting to end it because it was so horrible but I felt like that was where I was going to end up.