Breaking stones (Justin Bieber )

(chapter 31)Red Eyes

(chapter 31) Red Eyes 

Oceans POV  

I woke up in Justin's arms,I looked up at him and his eyes where blood shot he looked distressed and tired,

" baby are you okay you look terrible " I asked sitting up and he sat up next to me 

" yeah I'm fine, oh and happy birthday " he said kissing my forehead 

" baby get some sleep " I said getting out of bed, 

" I cant "  he said getting out of the bed, he sat on the bed and placed his hands down beside him and faced the wall 

" why cant you sleep Justin" I said he was really worrying me 

" because I'm worried about you ocean..do you even remember what happened last night when you got home from the hospital last night " he asked me, he clenched the bed sheets 

" no what happened Justin" I asked, all I remember was staring at the picture of Justin and jazzy and jaxon 

" well you started to cry after staring at a picture of me and my bother and sister, and I hugged you and well you cried harder and then you started hitting me and trying to get away from me, and well then I think you blacked out again and well I took you to bed and called a home doctor and they said..."He said and as he did I could here his voice and it sounded like he wanted to cry 

"what did he say Justin tell me "I begged 

" he said he think you may be anorexic, because of the no eating and he think because you haven't eaten properly its effecting your mental state and your ADHD, and if it gets any worse that I should call him and they will take you some where to help you " he said looking at the floor 

" so you all think I'm crazy, you think that I'm fucked up in the head " I shouted 

" no I don't think that at all ocean " he said but he actually looked scared of me 

" I'm so sorry for ruining your life Justin, I'm gonna just go" I said putting my jeans on 

" no ocean please don't leave me " He begged 

" I mean come on Justin I'm ruining your life, I mean look at you your actually scared of me, your scared I might have another mental break down and if I am mental you would have to put up with me for the rest of your life if we are going to get married, and I know you wouldn't want to stick around with a nut case, I mean I wouldn't want you to " I said sitting putting my top on 

" NO NO NO  ocean you are not leaving me now, your not leaving when things are getting hard, I'm not letting you leave me, we are meant to be together and I'm going to stick with you until the day I die, weather your mentally ill or not, I love you ocean gold and I always will" he said a little angrily he walked up to me and backed me towards the wall, then he pushed me up the wall softly, then he placed both of his hands in each of mine and lifted them slowly up the wall and once we got half way he kissed me softly and slowly, he entwined his fingers with mine as he kissed, the kiss became more passionate, he let go of my hand and slowly moved his hand up my top, I placed my hands on his bare chest and then he started to kiss my neck.

" you sure you ready to do this, because I'll stop of you want me to " He said still holding my one hip and one hand on my waist 

"yeah I want this, lets call it the first of my birthday sex " I giggled 

" the first " he said sounding surprised , I giggled and he picked me up and took me over to the bed and lay me down on the bed and started to undress me and once I got to my underwear, he stopped and looked at my body