Chapter 34
Justin's POV
Back In LA
"OCEAN" I screamed "OCEAN"
"Wake up baby" ocean said softly
I woke up in a sweat and tears where rolling down my cheeks I had that dream again, that one when ocean got taken away from me again.
“It was that dream wasn't it” she said sitting up next to me
"Yeah...I'm so sorry ocean, I'm sorry for letting you go, I'm sorry for not being there for you " I said wiping away the tears
“Justin it’s okay, I don't care that you left me, all that matters is that we are together now and that we love each other " She said
“but why can’t I have closure, why can’t I just put it in the past," I cried
"Come on Justin just go back to sleep we can just talk tomorrow " she said lying down
“Na I can’t just sleep ocean" I said getting out of the bed, I put some blue sweat pants on and a white t-shirt
“Justin where are you going "she said with a glare
“For a walk" I spat
“To go smoke weed" she mumbled
“yeah Ocean yeah, because that’s all I ever do, smoke weed, your unbelievable you know that right " I said then I walked out, I decided that I was going to smoke a joint because that’s all I did according to her and I just needed to relive the stress for a while, I pulled a joint out of the draw I was hiding them in and walked out of the door. I walked and walked until I found a bench and I pulled out my lighter and lit the thing up, and I started to smoke it and yeah I got high, I walked back to the house and went into the kitchen, I wanted food loads of food, I got as much food as I could and carried it onto the living room and then I started to eat a lot, but then I heard footsteps coming down the stairs and it must have been ocean because she was the only one in the house," Oceannnnnn" I laughed
“What are you doing" she asked holding her dressing gown together
"Eating fooood" I laughed
She walked up to me and looked me in the eyes
“You’re high" she muttered
“Well done smart ass” I laughed she glared at me a harsh glare
“you said you stopped Justin" she said turning away I knew she was crying
"I did but now I’m smoking again" I said with the biggest grin on my face
"But why" she asked
" because of you " I scowled " you drive me crazy, and as much as I hate it, I love it, I love every moment I spend with you I love everything we do together, but all the things I’ve done that have hurt you makes me want to rip my hair out, when you cry it hurts so bad, it actually hurts me, but the thing is I love that we have that connection, I love the fact that when we argue we make up sooner or later...what I’m really trying to say is that I love you so much that I think its driving me insane, I actually think I’m going to go crazy and I guess the weed calms me down gives me a break from everything a break from you " I said then I walked past her and went upstairs to shower, I didn’t know what was going to happen next I just needed to be in the right state of mind to deal with whatever was coming. After I showered I got back into my pjs and went down stairs, Ocean was in the corner of the room holding her knees and her head on her legs, I went over to her and sat down near her.
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