Faded (Minishaw)

Ch. 26

Lucy's POV

Now that I'm actually on my way to the hospital I relies that I don't even how I'm going to get in there, or at what hospital he is actually at, Simon guessed the hospital that is the nearest to his flat, but he could have been taken somewhere else, I'm so nervous, what if I can't see him, what if he does not want to see me or talk to me, what if I can't explain it to him. My mind is full of what if's and I don't want to do this anymore, I'm so nervous.

I always seem confident but I'm not, everyone has there insecurities, Mine is talking to strangers, I force my self to do so most off the time, I always seem like I know what I'm doing but I don't

"Do you have a patient here names Harry Lewis"

"are you a relative?"

"no, friend"

"OK, he is in room 394 on floor 5, you go up that lift to the 5th floor and then you ask for him there OK"

"thank you" I say and smile. Thank god that was the right hospital, otherwise I would have been so embarrassed and probably just gone home. I feel so nervous to see him, we don't even know what happened, what had he done. I could guess and I think the most likely thing is suicide attempt. But I hope it's not

I ask for Harry again when I come up to the 5th floor and I'm allowed to see him, I can see it trough the window off the room that there is someone in there and now I want to run, I don't want to do this, but I promised Simon, he is expecting this call from me any minute now, I need to do this.

"Harry" I say as I knock on the door

"who are you?" a skinny boy with black hair asks me

"I'm Lucy, I'm a friend off Conor's"

"who is that?" he asks me and I relies that I said the wrong name

"she means Simon" Harry tells him and I smile an awkward smile at him.

"Simon?" he asks and I can see he is confused.

"I never told you what happened the day that this happened" Harry tells him as I stand there awkwardly

"what?"

"I saw Simon at the park that day"

"what? At the park? What park?"

"the park that is like 20 minutes form my flat, me and Simon often went there together, but he was with her" Harry tells the boy as I stand there, I start to bite my lower lip, I do that when I get nervous. I've already guessed what happened to him, he attempted suicide.

"and that drove you to, you know" the boy asked

"you can say it, I tried to kill myself" Harry tells him.

"I'm so sorry" I shoot in there

"It's not your fault, It's no one's fault but mine, I was over emotional and hurt and I made a snap decision" Harry tells me and smiles at me.

"but what are you doing here" the brown haired boy asks me

"I actually promised Simon something, he saw that Harry was in hospital on twitter and he wanted to know what was going on"

"and he could not come himself?" Harry asked

"No, but he will explain everything to you and only you" I tell him and then hand him my phone.

"what is this"

"his name is Conor in my phone"

"Vikk, can you wait outside, I think this is something I have to do alone" Harry tells the boy that I finally know the name off, then we walk outside and wait.