Harry's POV
I can call him, I want to hear his voice so bad, but will that only hurt me, I'm doing better after they've started me on medication. I don't want to set myself back, but I can't pass this up, I need to talk to him and see his face. After thinking about this for over 5 minutes, just staring at the phone I finally press contacts and find Conor then I press dial and I can see myself on the little camera in the corner. Why do I feel so nervous.
"hello" Simon says as he turns on the camera and I can see his face, his beautiful face
"hey" I say and I can already feel the tears trying to brake free
"I was worried about you" he tells me, I can see it in his eyes that he means it.
"how did you know?" I ask
"Josh, he tweeted that you were in the hospital"
"do you know why?" I ask
"no, but I have a guess that I fear is right"
"and what might that be?" I ask
"I hope I'm wrong, but I think you tried to kill yourself"
"you're right" I say, no point in lying now.
"can I ask why? Was it because off me?"
"can I be honest?" I ask as I'm starting to cry
"I want you to be, you know that, I always want you to be honest with me" he tells me and I can see that he is about to cry as well.
"I've been depressed since you left me, I've not felt like a person for almost 6 months now, I feel like I'm just an empty shell that goes on with life with nothing to live for, I started to question if you even loved me in the first place and I convinced myself that this hole relationship was only in my head and nothing more, Then I heard Josh saw you and I was hurt, I just wanted to see you and talk to you and for you to give me a hug, I built up this reunion in my head that we would meat and it would all be OK, you would tell me you loved me and then you would come home with me, it was like a fairytale in my head, but then I saw you, and you told her that you used to come here with your ex. Everything just came crashing down, everything that I built up, then you just ran away from me, I just felt like you never wanted me in the first place and I was just done, I did not want to do this anymore, I did not want to feel this way any longer, I was just done. So I swallowed some pills with Vodka but Cal and Cal found me in time" I say and the tears are running, Simon is crying on the other end and I'm bawling my eyes out.
"I'm so sorry, I never ever wanted to hurt you, I love you and I always will"
"but then why did you leave me" I manage to say without my voice braking
"I'm in witness protection, It was not my choice" Simon yells down the phone, his eyes are red with tears
"what?" I ask, in shock
"I witnessed a crime and I'm a valuable witness, they threatened to hurt me or someone that I love so the police placed me in witness protection"
"why could you not have just told me that, why could you not just leave me a note, telling me that?" I yell at him as I struggle to keep it together.
"the police told me not to, I could not have any contact with anyone that I knew, I'm a key witness in a case that is on trial right now" he tells me and I just brake down
"so you do love me?" I ask after he has explained everything to me.
"I do, I love you so much and I miss you, every day"
"when can I see you?" I ask him
"I don't know, if they lose the case then maybe never" he tells me and I just brake down. I've finally got my explanation, but now I just want him to hug me. I just need a hug.
"I don't care if you put me in danger, I can't do this any longer, I just want you"
"Harry don't, I don't want you in danger"
"I don't care, I just want you here with me" I tell him
"I want nothing more than to be with you, but I'm sorry I can't, I love you"
"when will you find out?"
"the trial will hopefully finish in the next month, so I'm hoping soon, just so I know as well"
"can you call me again to tell me what happens?" I beg him and he just nods
"I love you Harry, never forget that" he tells me as he hangs up the phone and I just start bawling and put my face into my knees, Vikk then runs in and I can feel him hug me and I let go off my knees and hug him back.
"you are OK, everything is OK, just let it all out" Vikk tells me over and over again as he strokes over my back.
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Faded (Minishaw)
FanfictionMiniminter/ Wroetoshaw It had been months, I've been like a ghost, done nothing. I can't even think about life without you, I don't feel like I'm a person anymore, what am I doing with my life now that you are gone? I need to find you, I need you ba...
