Faded (Minishaw)

Ch. 5

-The day Harry gets the letter from Simon-

Harry's POV

It's been two days since Simon went missing, the police wont do anything, because all his stuff is gone they say that he must just have left himself, but I just don't want to believe that, he was happy, we were happy together, I don't understand why he would just leave. 

 I've not heard anything from Simon, I've called his phone over 200 times now, but the number has been disconnected, I've Emailed him to please just let me know if he is OK, I've talked to his mom and dad, they don't have any idea's on where he is, they might be lying to me but I don't have a any other option but to trust that they are telling me the truth. They sound just as worried as I am. But that might be just a cover. I don't know anymore, I don't know if people are telling me the truth or not, how can I be sure. 

I go downstairs to get the mail and there is a envelope there marked to be, but it has not been stamped so it has to be hand delivered and I'm worried, I don't want it to be bad.

I walk upstairs again, looking at the letter, wondering if I should even open it, I should open it, but will it just brake my heart or will I get some sort off explanation?, or it might be a ransom note, part off me hopes it is, is that sick that I kinda hope that the reason that my boyfriend is not here with me is that he was kidnapped. If that was the case at least I could do something about it, I would race the money somehow, My parents, his parents, our friends. I would do anything to get him back, I would pay anything to get him back. But then again why would someone kidnap Simon, This is London not Mexico City. Kidnapping is not a daily thing here. Or maybe it is, I don't even know. 

As I come back to the flat both Cal's are there, they are worried about me, I understand that they are but I'm not ready to talk to them about this, I don't want to talk to anyone, I just put the mail on the table and  go to my bedroom and lock myself in there with my letter. Wondering what I should do. I'm having such an inner struggle. 

"Harry" I hear Cal ask trough the door

"yeah"

"you know we are here for you right?" he says

"thanks" I say back, what else can I say, I don't want to talk about this yet, I feel like they are pushing me to talk about this and I'm not ready, I don't know when I will be ready to talk about this. 

"Come out Harry, maybe we can help?" Callum tells me as he knocks on the door

"I don't want to talk about this" I say back, I sound mean, but I'm just not ready, I don't want to be pushed into talking about it if I don't want to and they just need to respect that. 

I just sit on my bed, holding the letter in my hand, should I open it, there is no point stalling it. In the end I open it up. I'm so disappointed that I scream out, no explanation on what happened, Only one sentence, that was it! 

Sorry, I did not want this to happen,

 this was not my choice but I can't take you with me. 

I love you always 

Si

I read this over and over again, I don't understand, 

why was it not his choice?

what was going on?

What is going on?

this only left me with more questions than I had before. I just want to know where you are now, I break down in tears and I cry myself to sleep, like I've done for the past 2 days.