This is not a happy ending

EPILOGUE

EPILOGUE

Akala ko dati, happily-ever-after na ung buhay ko.

Akala ko si kulet na talaga.

Akala ko kami na until the end.

Hanggang akala lang pala...

Masama ba na itinatak ko sa isip ko na siya na talaga? Kasi alam ko eh... ramdam ko naman na siya na talaga ung mamahalin ko ng ganito kasobra. Masama bang pinaasa ko ung sarili ko na nasa akin na ung lalaking mamahalin ko ng sobra at mamahalin din ako ng sobra in return? Alam nyo ba ung wagas? Sa kanya ko lang binigay un eh.

Pero ngayon, alam ko na na hindi pala happy ending ung story ko. Alam ko na na hindi pala totoo ung happily-ever-after. It's so silly for me to say that I used to believe in fairytales before.

Pero ang tanga ko lang kasi nakalimutan ko na totoong mundo nga pala 'tong ginagalawan ko.

I still believe that my life will go on...

But not just the same as it was before.

Mayroong mga bagay na kung talagang nakaukit na, hindi na talaga matatanggal. At parang basong nabasag. Kahit anong dikit ang gawin mo dyan, may lamat na yan. Hindi na mabubuo katulad ng dati.

Alam ko makakangiti din ako ng maayos.

Alam ko makakahinga ulit ako.

Alam ko magiging okay din ako.

Maybe I can live my life again 'cause I know that's what Aaron wanted for me to do.

I will... In time.

I believe no one wants to end something tragically... sadly. I know all of us want to be happy. I want to be happy. You also want to be happy, right? I know everyone wants to feel happiness... joy... fulfillment and love. Kasi tao tayo. We always want the good sides.

But the sad thing I also know and I'm very much aware of lalo na ngayon is that everything will always have an ending. Whether you like it or not, natatapos ang lahat. The only choices are either a happy one or a sad one. But still, I know it will end.

I am a writer.

I choose to be a writer.

But too bad I can't write my own story.

Too bad I can't choose how things are supposed to end.

Every story comes to an end but how am I supposed to end mine? It hurts so badly. It's killing me inside.

'Cause as you can see...

My story is definitely not a happy ending.