This is not a happy ending

CHAPTER 8

CHAPTER 8

Aaron

FROM: Meg

Aaron, please see me. I miss you so much.

I kept on reading the text message again and again. Hindi ko nga alam kung dapat ba kong matuwa or malungkot or kung ano man ang dapat kong maramdaman.

Meg. Megan Louise Arth is my first love. I met her at France when I was in college. She's studying Fine Arts that time while I was studying Business Management. It was actually not hard to fall for her. She's sweet and kind though mataray talaga sya. She always does something to get what she wants. Though she was not my first girlfriend... I was more serious to her compared to my other former relationships.

Well, just like any other relationships, nagkalamat ung samin and then one day she decided to break up with me. Dahil hindi naman ako ung taong mahilig maghabol, I let it be. Anyway, that's what she wanted eh. And napagod na rin naman ako because of a lot of reasons.

If I'll ask myself right now kung ano na ba ang talagang nararamdaman ko towards her, I cannot deny the truth that I still have my feelings for her. I mean, I like her and she has always been special to me... though not the same as it was before. Ang tagal-tagal na rin naman kasi nun. I was still 17 years old when I first loved her... 21 na ko ngayon. Kaya wala na. Moved on na ko then now, see her?

Since the day I received this message... nagbago ang lahat sa normal kong buhay nung bumalik ako dito sa Philippines. Kaya hindi ko talaga alam kung maasar ba ako o ano eh.

Mon ange.

Wala ng mon ange. Lecheng buhay 'to! I didn't even know if I should be mad at her eh.

Bakit ba kahit gusto kong maasar or magalit sa kanya... I just couldn't. Dumating na lang ung araw na iniiwasan nya na ko. Ung tipong this day magkasama pa kami at matinong nag-uusap tapos the next day, biglang WOW! Anong nangyari?

There are things in life that happened without even knowing the reason why the hell it happened and how it happened. Happened happened. This is making me crazy!

"Ugh!" Nasabunutan ko na ung sarili kong buhok sa inis.

Mo ange! Mon ange! Ano ba kasing nagawa ko sayo? Bakit ka umiwas?

“Wag ka ng makulit, okay? Kelangan at GUSTO kong tapusin na ‘to. Be fair naman sa lahat ng mga employees dito. I don’t want them to think na porke’t KAIBIGAN kita eh palagi na lang iba ang treatment sakin.”

I was actually hurt when I heard her say that to me. Pakiramdam ko binagsakan ako ng kung anong mabigat na bagay. Ang sama nga ng pakiramdam ko nun eh. A lot of questions flashed on my mind that time. What happened? What did I do wrong? Are you mad at me? Why are you mad at me then? Are you tired of being my friend na? Are you tired of me being makulit na? Are you tired of being called mon ange na?