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Chapter 3: I Broke My Own Heart

Alison's POV

I sent the invitations to the wedding a few days ago so no one had RSVP'd yet and she hadn't called either. I didn't know if she was planning on ignoring me now for good or maybe she just hadn't received it. I don't know which one worried me more. On one hand, I'd lost her but on the other I had yet to face her and I knew she'd be pissed. Either way it wasn't good. I shouldn't let it pre-occupy me so much but I can't help it. I mean it's normal right? We have a past, a past most best friends don't have, a past that complicated things for us.

'' Darling...'' Elliot stares at me questioningly and worry spread on his face '' What's wrong?''

I look at him over the kitchen counter, I hang my head a little not sure if I should tell him. I don't want to worry him too but I could really use his comfort right now, I mean he is going to be my husband, I guess I should give him the chance to make me at ease, that's one of the jobs of your soulmate and apparently he is mine, apparently. I put my piece of toast down and make my way to him. I sit on his lap and wrap my arms around his neck, nuzzling my nose there and inhaling his aftershave that sends tingles down my spine

'' I'm scared'' I admit mumbling into his neck

'' Of what?'' he asks softly, gently caressing my hair and resting his lips of my temple

'' Of losing my best friend''

I hear him let out a breath and he starts soothingly rubbing my back resting another hand on my bare thigh, I'm still in my pjs

'' Ali... You won't lose her'' he reassures me '' You've had too much an impact on her life for her to throw your friendship away''

'' But I wasn't honest... I didn't tell her, that was the one thing she only ever asked of me when I came back, it was that I had to be honest and tell her the truth no matter what it was...'' I sigh heavily and try and keep the tears at bay, pulling away slightly and looking into his eyes

'' Ali, baby, you can't expect things to turn out the way you thought they would when you were 17. A lot has changed since then and just because you didn't tell your first love about you getting married directly it doesn't mean she is going to stop being your friend, okay? She'll still love you'' I gulp a little as he says that, knowing he meant it in a friendly way but I can only think about how she used to say it to me like it was the most precious thing in the world '' She's your best friend, so she might be a little hurt a first but she'll be more happy for you than you think once the initial shock has passed. Trust me.'' he smiles and kisses my cheek

After a few minutes of comfortable silence, basking in our tender embrace I speak up '' Thank you, love...''

'' For what?'' he whispers as if scared to break the beauty of the moment

'' For always knowing what to say. For being here.'' I look down shyly ''But

mainly for being you'' I murmur back in all honesty

'' I'm here for you, Alison. I'll always be'' he answers lifting my chin up. He then grabs my ring finger and brings it to his lips, kissing it delicately '' I love you''

I lean in and capture his lips in mine softly, my hands moving up to his hair and his securing me at my waist. Emily will be happy to know I'm going to marry Elliot. It's true, it changes from whom I thought I originally would marry when I was 17 and I did always think we would somehow end up together but Elliot is right, a lot has changed since her and I were young and in love. Our dream of once being at the altar together is just another teenage fantasy. Now I'm going to marry the man I love and my best friend is going to stand beside me crying happily as she watches me become Mrs Alison Rollins.