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Chapter 35: Non-Couple Couples Counselling

Emily's POV

"YOU SAID WHAT?" Quinn screamed down the phone

"I offered to see other people whilst we wait" I repeated quietly as I laid in bed

"What the fuck is wrong with you? Why would you do that? Why would you think that was a good idea?"

"I don't know ... My therapist said that we needed to work on trusting each other and that might mean seeing other people."

"Ok did she actually tell you to see other people?"

"Not exactly"

"EM! What did she say?"

"She said that we both needed to process and accept the fact that other people had loved us and we'd loved other people."

"Ok but that's not news"

" Yeah well she thinks that the core of our trust issues came from a belief of betrayal of seeing other people even though we'd broken up - like I feel like Ali chose Elliot over me and..." I go silent not really wanting to say the rest

"And what, Emily?" she huffed, exasperated

"And that I chose you over Ali..."

"Oh"

After Quinn and I broke up that day in the janitor's closet we never brought up the fact that we dated. There was no point. It had happened. I had cheated on Ali with her and then we dated. And it was fun but it didn't last. That was it. "Quinn... I don't regret those two weeks you know"

"Em... Come on, it's fine if you do. I made you lose your soulmate"

"You didn't make me do anything, Quinn. It was my decision. It happened and that's what Ali and I need to work on."

"Hmmm ok, if you say so" she answered although I heard the hesitation in her voice "So anyways, from that you got we should see other people??? How?"

"I don't know, I wasn't really thinking" I rub my face, cringing at what I'd told Ali the other night "I was drunk and horny and there were loads of girls around and then there she was all pretty and laughing and I missed her and I kinda hoped she would say 'fuck it with this whole hiatus thing' and kiss me. I don't know" I ramble

"Oh buddy..."

"Yeah, well, she didn't. Instead, I feel like I made things that much harder for us"

"Yeah I think you did. But, for what it's worth, you might want to tell your therapist about this and also tell her to be clearer in her instructions." she chuckles

"Haha very funny! Speaking of, I should go, I have an appointment in 15minutes"

"Ok see you - keep me updated!"

"Duh! Bye, Quinn!"

I walk over to Dr Sullivan's office which is a few minutes away from the loft.

When I walk into the waiting room, her office door opens "Thanks Dr Sullivan, this has been helpful"

"Alison..."

The blonde turns around and crosses her arms, raising an eyebrow as she sees me.

"Ah, Emily" Dr Sullivan says awkwardly "Actually, I think I should see the both of you together right now. I think there are some things that need to be cleared up. Shall we have a quick non-couple couple session?" she offers

"Um yeah sure" I stutter and walk past Ali ashamed. Fuck, she must have told Dr Sullivan what I said... Crap

Ali lets out a sigh and follows me back into the room. We take a seat at opposite sides of the couch and I can't help but nervously wrung my hands. We sit in silence for a few minutes. Dr Sullivan sits on the seat in front of us and just stares at me. Alison is leaning on the armrest, holding her head up, occasionally throwing me a glance and letting out a sigh. I just sit there stupidly, saying nothing despite obviously being the one who's meant to say something.