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Chapter 10: A Secret Life

Emily's POV

'' What is it, Emily?'' Spencer asks from her position next to the fireplace

'' Yeah, why'd you call us here?'' Aria looks up at me from the chair she's in as I pace relentlessly rubbing my temple.

'' I'll tell you soon... Where the fuck is she?'' I say getting frustrated at how the blonde was running late

'' She said she'd be here in 2 minutes Em... Take a breath, have some water'' Hanna walks towards me with a glass in hand. I grab and drink it in one go

'' Em... You're worrying us... Please just tell us'' Spencer worries looking at me pleadingly

'' Just give it a few more minutes. Alison needs to hear this, I don't want to-''

'' Needs to hear what?'' a voice says bitterly from behind me

I turn around and see her in the doorway. I immediately feel my breath caught in my throat and I can't help but rake my eyes over her body. When I meet her eyes, I realise she caught me staring and I see a small smile form on her lips before it's quickly replaced by a scowl

'' What do I need to hear, Emily?'' To me, it sounds threatening, she's probably scared I wanted to talk about what happened in the woods but I have nothing to say to her after she made her feelings crystal clear to me.

''Umm..'' I cough quickly trying to recover and face all of them as I lean my back against the wall. I look down and take a deep breath. This is it, Emily. These girls are your family. They deserve to know the truth. They deserve to know you've been lying to them. They deserve better. '' Before I say anything, I just, I want to apologise. I didn't mean to lie, I didn't mean to disappoint you. I didn't mean to betray any of you'' As I say this, my eyes glance over each one of them and settle on my ex by the end. '' I dropped out of college after my father died. I couldn't keep up with the workload because the loss of him slowly started consuming my entire being.'' I could already feel the tears threatening to make their way out as my best friends stared at me in shock and pity. Well isn't this a great start '' I couldn't think straight. Everything suddenly came crashing down on me. I'd lost too many people in my life, girlfriends, exes and my father's death was just too much. It sent me over the edge. So I quit before they could kick me out. For the past few years, I've been doing little jobs in LA, where I live in a crappy apartment. Quinn offered me to move into her new big fancy apartment with her but you guys know me, it didn't feel right. As of right now I am overly broke, my job at the beach bar isn't paying me well enough. Which brings me to this.'' I wipe the few stray tears that had found their way down my cheeks before putting my hand in my back pocket and taking out the leaflets Hanna had previously held. I give them to Spencer, who studies them before passing them on as I explain '' When I understood how broke I was, I didn't know what to do. I have no qualifications and my bartending job already takes most of my time. And one day I saw this ad...'' I look down embarrassed as the leaflets reach Alison, but I couldn't help and study her reaction. She stares at me mouth wide open before quickly recovering and shoving them back into Hanna's hand and going back to her previous position in the door way. Arms folded across her chest, lips pursed, her eyes cold like when she used to hide her feelings '' This clinic was looking for egg donors for wannabe parents. It was quick and easy cash, so I agreed. I got my home-care package a few weeks ago but I couldn't go through with it. Money became more and more scarce and I had to...'' I sniff trying to control my feelings. I wasn't going to be weak, especially not in front of her. I couldn't allow myself to be weak anymore. '' So I went again a few days before coming here. I just got my first shot to stimulate my hormones a couple hours ago. I have a few more to go through and they say that in about 2 weeks they're gonna be able to take my, um , my sample.'' I gulp nervously and meet their eyes. All of them are staring at me in utter shock, eyes wide.