Emison: Home

Chapter 20: Me, Myself and I

Elliot's POV

God, I'm a miserable sod. I've not left home since the wedding. I've spent the last month feeling like absolute shit. This was meant to be the honeymoon period where I should be full of love and soppiness, where I'm with my wife celebrating us and how fucking amazing we are together. But that stupid Emily just had to pick my wedding day to profess her love to my fiancée. I always knew it would happen but I didn't think it would be on my wedding day and I definitely didn't think that Ali would suddenly run from me! I did expect the cheating at some point but I didn't think she would fess up so quick and then make a runner. I was so sure she'd stay with me - at least until she figured it out, even if she eventually figured out it wasn't me. But we've been together so long. There's no way she wouldn't have picked me. I've provided her with support, a home, love, care and we've been nothing but happy together. Emily could only provide her uncertainty and distrust. Whatever. Hopefully by the time she gets back, she will have figured that out.

I just need to know she's ok. I need to know she loves me. She has to come back to me. She can't just leave this, us behind. Not after everything we've been through. She can't jump ship for a teenage romance, surely our five years together are more important than six months as a teenager.

''Elliot?'' I suddenly hear ring throughout the house. I run to the entrance corridor and there she is, right in front of me, in all her beauty. Her beautiful blonde hair rested perfectly on her shoulders, her skin was tanned and glowing. Her eyes were engulfing me into this beautiful woman she is. Taking a hold of me. ''Hi...'' she quietly snaps me out of my daze

I don't say anything and just grab her into a tight hug. At first she doesn't budge. It takes a few seconds before I feel her arms envelop me. Thank fuck. She's back. Here with me. She's home. Our home. She chose me. She fucking picked me! ''God I'm so relieved you're here! I was so worried I'd lost you, that you'd given up on us! We can work on us! We'll make it through! God , I lo-''

''Elliot... Stop'' she pushes us apart and I can see the pity in her stare

''No'' I shake my head in disbelief ''No no no! Come on! For fucks sake Ali! How the fuck could you choose her over me! After everything she put you through! After all the hurt and the pain! I've always been here for you! I am here for you!'' I yell

'' It's not like that Elliot...'' she sighs

'' How is not like that Alison?! I provide you with everything you need! I've never hurt you! I've never cheated on you! I've never left you behind! I've always made decisions with you in mind! Can you honestly look me in the eye and say the same about her?'' she just looked down '' You can't seriously be giving this up for a fling! For a girl who is probably currently so fucking knee deep in pussy she can't remember your name!''

''ELLIOT! STOP!'' she screams over me ''Will you just listen! I am not choosing either of you! I've taken some time off to be by myself and I need to be own knight in shining armour for a bit. I can't always expect other people to save me. I need to learn to be alone.''

I turn around and walk back to the kitchen, open the fridge and crack open a beer. I hear follow me ''Also for your information, Emily seems to be trying to sort her life out''

I snorted ''Really now? Did she promise you that?'' 

''Elliot'' she scowled

'' What? This is what she's done for the past 5 years. She lies about her life, lies about her personality, breaks her promises and leaves you broken. And then I pick up the pieces patiently.'' I look down and sigh '' I'm not stupid Alison... I know that you love her and probably always will.'' I walk up and stand in front of her ''But you have got to see how bad she is for you and how good I am Alison. I am always here for you. I love you and care for you more than anything. We were about to get married Ali... I just-It hurts to know you can just forget it and leave this behind...''

'' I could never forget us. It hurts me too and it does feel strange Elliot... Don't think that this is all fine and dandy for me. I don't enjoy it. I have been so lost in these relationships for the past 6 years I just need to be by myself and figure out who I am without someone stepping in to help me all the time. '' she cups my chin to look her in the eyes and holds my hand. Her eyes are tearing up '' I am sorry for all this pain I am causing you. I am so thankful for the last 5 years and for all the things you have done for me. You may have just saved my life. I was a mess after that break up and you saved me. I do love you. I just don't know if that's enough anymore.'' she stares at the ground and I just grab her in a tight hug

"I'll be waiting Alison. I've waited before and I will do it again. Whatever it takes. I love you too much to let anything get in the way of that" I kiss her forehead as she breaks the hug.

She wipes her tears and smiles at me ''I'll go pack my things. I'm sorry Elliot."

I feel 17 again as I watch the blond beauty walk away from me because I will never be like her Killer. I will never be enough for her. 

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