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Chapter 12: The Dress

* 28th July*

Alison's POV

I stared ay myself in the mirror as the final adjustments were made to my dress. This is real. This is happening. I am wearing a white dress. A white wedding day dress. To wear on my wedding day. Wow... I'm getting married, holy fuck! This is actually happening! I am actually going to spend the rest of my life with him... Definitely never saw that coming.

I study my dress in the mirror, looking myself up and down... Although my hormone imbalance was better I had still maintained a certain amount of curves and I no longer had the slim build of when I was 15/16, which is why I didn't want to wear a dress that would be too tight to my body. I wouldn't feel comfortable. I wouldn't feel beautiful. My weight was still something I had to work on being okay with. Elliot offered me reassurance and he did meet me when I was already like this, but it wasn't enough for me to feel like my curves were something I wanted so show off, I mean I had accepted them but that was it. So here I stand, in my strapless dress with a tight bust and that flows out from my belly-button level. The waist had a sort of embroidered belt made of these small silver rhinestones and the skirt was decorated with this silver motif at the bottom that every now and then rose a little higher.

(A/N I know this description is crap so it's basically the dress above)

'' Ali! Come on! Let's us see!'' Hanna yells excitedly from outside the curtain

'' Alright, alright...'' I sigh as I turn away from the mirror

I take a deep breath, close my eyes and open the curtain.

'' Woah...'' I hear from the girls

I slowly open my eyes to see my four best friends staring at me in awe. As I turn to face the bigger mirror in the room, my eyes can't help but rest on the brunette. I see her eyes wandering over the dress, her face is soft unlike her new usual cool and cold facade. It was as though she was back to her old self, back to my Emily. But that moment, that moment where she studied me and admired me, was short lived. As soon as she met my eyes staring right back at her through the mirror, she turned away, rubbed her hand over her face and stood up.

'' I'll be back. I-um-I have a phone call to make'' she nods and quickly heads out

I'd lie if I say I wasn't a little hurt. Probably gone to call one of her many hoes or something... It kinda sucks she's become this person. In my heart, I can't help but feel as though it's my fault. But my head keeps fighting me. She made this decision to become this person all by herself. Of course, I feel bad that she had to drop out, I'm not saying that wasn't a difficult decision... The same goes for the fertility thing but her personality... This player who doesn't give a shit, she didn't have to be like this. My heart screams at me that it's because I gave up on her, on us or because I didn't forgive her and allow her to redeem herself. But I gave her 5 years, she had all this time before I got engaged. And now I'm happy. My heart is pushing me to believe my happiness is the cause of everything but my head knows better.

'' Ali? Alison!'' Aria snaps me out of my thoughts

'' Sorry what?'' I shake my head out of my daze

'' Are you okay?'' Spencer checks in, resting her hand on my shoulder

'' Yeah...'' I say plastering a smile on my face '' Just nervous''

'' Nervous? About what?'' Spencer wonders confused

'' You know the usual pre-wedding jitters! I mean you know about those Hanna right?''

'' Um... No, not really. I knew Caleb and I were meant to be so apart from like making sure everything was ordered and all I didn't have the pre-wedding jitters''