Smoke and Fire • Lucaya

Chapter 36 : Losing you

Maya's pov:

Lucas just invited Sabrina to hang out at the park. And I decided to tell Lucas the truth. I was so nervous. I know that he's gonna hate me for this. But I kinda deserve it.

I pull out a plain white tank top and a high waisted distressed shorts. I started doing my make up. After that I put my wig on. I go grab my phone and my purse and then I went downstairs.

"Where are you going?" Liv asked me.

"I'm going to the park" I replied.

"With Lucas?" Liv asked.

"Yeah, I'm gonna tell him the truth" I tell her.

"I'm so proud of you Maya!" She said as she wrapped her hands around me.

I grabbed the car keys and start driving. Liv was waving at me and I waved back. After about 10 minutes, I arrived at the park. God, I'm so nervous.

I was at the park and I sat down against the tree close to the lake. I heard a movement behind me and I turned my head and saw Lucas

"Hi" I smiled at him.

"Hi" He said as he sat down next to me.

"There's something I want to tell you" I announced.

"Me too" He said as he run his fingers through his hair.

"Do you remember that time when you sing 'Smoke and Fire' and I said that I don't like that song?" He asked and I nod a little bit.

"Well it's because me and Maya Hart used to date. I loved her so much, she meant the world to me. But I messed up, real bad. My best friend, Farkle kissed her and I thought that she was cheating on me with him. Everyday she tried to explain to me what really happened, but I didn't believe her. I left her. And it really hurts to know that I did that to her. But I really did love her, and I still do. And one day, Farkle told me what really happened between them. And God, I felt like a total dick for not believing in her. And I tried to fix everything, but I was too late. I remembered how much it hurts seeing her hurt" He stopped when a tear fell from his eyes.

"And when she gave up on me, I don't know what to do. It hurts like hell. So I left. I left LA. I ran away to Texas. I lost everything. My best friends, my girlfriend. I didn't have anybody, so I started hurting myself. I felt abandoned, hurt, useless, pathetic, invisible and hopeless" Tears were streaming down his face. I tried as much as humanly possible to hold back the tears.

"I hate myself more than anything. I felt so empty, yet I feel so much pain. I thought I could never love again. But then I met you"

I felt lucas's hands on my cheeks as he leaned closer to me. I tried to pull away, but my body physically wouldn't move. Lucas's eyes were locked in mine, I couldn't look away from his beautiful green eyes. Slowly, Lucas closed the gap between us and, again, as much as I tried to pull away, I couldn't! My legs couldn't move to back away, my hands wouldn't move up to push him away. I felt his lips connect to mine. But then he quickly pulled away.

"Maya?" His eyes widen and he quickly stood up. He looked at me in confusion. He found out the truth. So what's the point of wearing this wig. I take off the wig and he looked at me in disappointment and then he was about to walk off but I quickly grab his wrist.

"Lucas please, just listen to me. I love you and-"

"You love me?" He looked at me coldly. "Bullshit"

And just like that, he walked away without even looking back.