Smoke and Fire • Lucaya

Chapter 54 : He's gone

Maya's pov:

It has been 3 weeks and Lucas still hasn't woke up. I can't take it anymore. I can't lose him. I didn't even say goodbye. This is all my fault. Why did I let him ride the bull?

"I'm sorry Lucas. I'm so so sorry" I hold his hand and cry. "Please come back"

Then I heard something that kills me, he flat lined.

Everything started going crazy. The doctors rush in and pushed me out. I looked at them and they were shocking him with high voltage, but it didn't work.

He's gone

"I'm sorry miss, we did everything we could"

"No! No! He can't be! He has to come back!" I cried out loud.

"I'm sorry ma'am" The doctor said and walked out of the room.

Riley, Josh, Farkle and Liv walked into the room and they're all shocked to see Lucas's body covered in sheets.

"Wait, it can't be! Lucas can't be dead!" Josh started crying and ran to Lucas.

"I'm so sorry Maya" Riley hugged me so tight.

"He can't be dead! Maya please tell me that this is all not true!" Josh cried and I hugged him and we all cried on each other shoulders.

"I'm sorry Josh"

Then Lucas's mom came barging into the door and she covered her mouth to muffle her sob. She walked over to Lucas's body and stand there in shock.

"I never thought you would leave me this fast" She cried. I walked over to her and place my hand on her shoulder.

"I'm so sorry for your lost" I said and she pulled me into a hug and I hug back.

Once she let go of the hug, she grabbed her purse and give me a piece of paper.

"This is for you" She said, handing me the paper as I take it from her.

"What is it?" I asked.

"I found it in Lucas's room. I think you should read it alone" She told me and I nodded.

"You should go back to your hotel honey, get some rest" Lucas's mom said.

Riley lead me to the door and out of the hospital. Farkle opened the car's door and Riley, Liv and I stepped inside the car. Josh drive us to our hotel.

Once we arrived at the hotel, we all get some sleep. But I kept thinking about Lucas. I remembered about the paper that Lucas's mom gave me. I got up from the bed and take that piece of paper and start reading it.

Dear Maya,

I don't know why I'm writing this since you will never found it. But I just want to let out my feelings for you.

I know that everything have been so rough lately between us, but that doesn't change how much I love you. This past couple months have been the most painful time, cause you weren't here with me. I thought I just needed some time to move on, but no. Nothing can change how much I love you. You're still the most amazing and beautiful girl I have ever seen. But that's the part of the problem. I see all the time every day. We have the same friends, we are committed to the same things, so I just have to live life and see you, but avoid you. And when I see you, you look like you're doing fine like our break up doesn't fazed you. Josh said you're hurt too, but you've always been good at hiding your emotion so I don't really know. I just want to talk to you and find out how you are doing, and comfort you. I wish I could talk to you one last time and tell you how much you mean to me, because you mean the world to me and I love you so fucking much. And that's never gonna change. It's hard to say things like this. I know that you already know most of it, but I need to say it to you. I don't expect anything from you, I just want you to know. I love you. Always have, always will.

-Lucas