Smoke and Fire • Lucaya

Chapter 55 : Goodbye

Maya's pov:

It was the day of Lucas's funeral. God, I never thought this day would ever come, but it did. I died when I saw Lucas's body laying there. I didn't even get to say goodbye.

They was about to buried Lucas. But before that, his mom wanted me and Josh to speak at the funeral, so we did.

Josh walked up in front of everyone. He wiped away his eyes first before saying anything. I know deep down inside a part of him died, to see Lucas like this.

"Hi everyone my name is Joshua Gabriel Matthews." He started the speech.

"I was Lucas's best friend and yeah.." a tear fell down his cheeks.

"Lucas Friar was an amazing person, and I don't know how I'm gonna manage without him... Its's gonna hurt. A lot. He's caring, he's loving, over all he's my best friend and that's never gonna change. We are the center of the universe. At least that's what I thought. Something shows me that we're not. The sun doesn't go around the earth. We're the ones moving. We orbit the sun, because we need it. We need its light and its heat, and if it wasn't there, we'd be dark and alone" He paused.

"We think that we're the center of the universe, but the truth is... We need to circle the ones we love for as long as they're here. We need to hold them close, because no matter how far we travel, they are the ones who hold us in place. for a moment we're all together. Let's really look at one another. Goodbye Lucas. You will always be my best friend."

Everyone clapped their hands, and now it's my turn. I wiped away the tears and walked in front of everyone.

"Hi, my name is Maya Penelope Hart. Lucas Friar was my boyfriend. Umm... Kinda... It's complicated" I said and I heard a few people chuckled.

"But I know that he was my everything. Even tho we're not together, but that doesn't change how much I love him. God, I'm gonna miss him so much" I stopped and cried.

"I will miss Lucas until the day God calls me home. Until we are together again, I'm not complete. Our time together may have been cut short, but my love for you, will last a lifetime. I remember we always fight with each other, I messed up and he yelled. We're not the perfect couple, but I know that he loves me. And you don't have to ask how much I love him, cause nothing could explain how big my love for him. He's a wonderful guy, and I don't know how I'm gonna manage without him. It's gonna hurt knowing that our fairy tale  didn't have a happy ending" I stopped and looked at Lucas.

"I'm sorry, I can't do this" I apologized and quickly run away.

"Maya!" I heard Riley said while running after me but I ignore her and keep running. She tries to run up to stop me, but I was faster than her. I kept running until I reach to the point where I couldn't take it anymore, I broke down and cry so hard. I just can't believe that he's gone. He's really gone. I don't even get to say goodbye.

"Maya!" Riley ran up to me and hug me so tightly.

"Riley how do I handle this? I don't know how to handle this!" I said while crying on her shoulder.

"You're not alone" She told me as she cry on my shoulder.

She let go of the hug and wiped the tears on my cheeks. I saw Josh, Farkle and Liv from the distance, walking over to us.

"You know he loves you right?" Josh asked, making sure I know, while sitting down on the ground next to me.

"No... He don't" I tell them all

"Maya, he loves more than anything"

"No he don't! He gave up on us by killing himself! I hate him! I hate him! I feel like I'm never going to be happy again!" I said, basically yelling at them. Josh quickly pulled me into a tight hug, while I cried on his shoulder so hard.

"He didn't kill himself Maya... He did it to make his father proud" Farkle tells me.

I quickly let go of the hug and give him a death glare "No! Getting on that stupid bull it means that you're already freaking dead! There's no chance of you getting off that thing alive!"

"Maya, everything happens for a reason" Liv told me.

"No Liv, not everything happens for a reason. Sometimes life just sucks" I tell her back.

"Life knows what it's doing Maya." Riley assured me

"Maya... You will get through this, I know you will" Josh said, looking deeply in my crystal blue eyes and I quickly pulled all of them into a group hug. What's sad is that our circle of friends will never gonna be complete again without Lucas.

Goodbye Lucas.. I'll always miss you. But our love is like a wind. I can't see it. But I can feel it.