The Life Of A Veterans Wife.

The time to say good bye nearing.

As we woke to go back to the park the next day I realized our time together was growing near to a close. He only had two weeks. I wanted to make the most of it. We had a fun filled day at the park at Wild Adventures and then retreated to our hotel for a hot shower and head to dinner.

I was constantly sick no matter how much or how little I ate. Raymond grew worried as always. We finished our dinner and left. I barely ate my stomach not allowing me to eat much. We retreated back to the hotel for a night of cuddling and time. We decided we would go to the hotel pool and swim. We did that and went back to our room for hot showers and sleep.

The ride home was depressing knowing I only had less than a week left with Raymond. We spent every waking minute together. As time grew near for me to take him back to the airport for him to depart I grew restless. I didn't want him to go back to that horrible place. My fears were of him not returning home to me and Julian.

I knew I had no choice. The morning of his departure was torture for me all I wanted to do was cry. Julian went with me to say our goodbyes. Raymond cried and I cried and as the flight was called we hugged and kissed and I didn't want to let him go but he pryed my hands loose from his waste and waved as he walked toward his gate to board. I stood at the win do with Julian in my arms as we watch his plane taxi down the run way and lift up and leave. I stood not able to hold back the tears. A nice lady came to me and handed me a tissue. She stood there crying with me telling me her husband was there on that plane along with mine. She told me we had to pray for God to send our men home in one piece to us. We stood and prayed. I hugged her and Julian and I made our way back to the car. I loaded him up and we left.

It took time for me to drive home because I was driving through tears. I knew it would be days before I heard from Raymond because he would be what they call I route back to camp. I still felt ill after our weeks together and it scared me. So I went to the doctors after scheduling an appointment.

The doctor did blood work and lots of other tests. She came in with a smile on her face. I was confused because I wasn't sure if something was seriously wrong with me or not. I knew my chances of pregnancy were slim due to chemotherapy so I knew it couldn't be that. I wasn't sure if she was smiling to soften the blow of something serious. My mind was whirling around of the things it could be.

She sat down in her chair and said everything looked good nothing was wrong and that the sickness I had been experiencing was from being pregnant. I couldn't believe it!!! I cried and asked if she was joking with me. The major told me she wasn't joking that I was really pregnant. She showed me the lab results and I still couldn't believe it. She said she would give me a script to help with the nausea and some prenatals to get me the vitamins I would need started.

I was shocked! She scheduled an ultra sound to see exactly how far along I was.