Should I get coffee and be a tad late to school or should I not get coffee and show up 20 minutes before class starts? See if they didn't make a coffee shop a couple of blocks away from school, I wouldn't be having this problem right now.
Okay I have come down to a conclusion; I'm definitely getting the coffee. I'm always on time anyways, being a few minutes late won't hurt. As I'm waiting in line, I notice the girl in front of me looks kind of familiar. Maybe I've seen her around summer school or something.
As I wait for my coffee, the girl with the familiar keeps staring at me. She probably recognizes me too. Wait. I think she's in my class. What's her name? I know it. Ummm. She was one of the girls whispering about Shawn. What's her name. I think her name was said in the conversation. Oh well. I guess if I didn't remember then, then I won't remember now.
As I pick up my order and walk out of the coffee shop. I can feel her staring at me while she walks behind me. What does she want? I'm just gonna tell her something.
"I'm sorry. I honestly don't mean to be a bother," I say while turning around in her direction "but you've been staring at me for the past 20 minutes. It's not normal to stare at someone that long. Is there anything you need?" I ask. She looks stunned. She probably wasn't expecting me to confront her.
"Wow. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to creep you out or anything. You just looked familiar."
"Well we're in the same math class, so you looked pretty familiar for me too."
"I'm sorry. I'm Diana. I sit in front of you I think." That's what it was. She's Diana. Duhh.
"You're Amelia right?"
"Yeah I am." I say while we continue walking to school.
"Aren't you going out with Shawn?" Wait what? Seriously? We're barely friends. What makes her think we're going out? We don't even speak to each other during class. Only after class.
"Oh God no. We're not going out. I have a boyfriend and Shawn has...well he has himself."
"Really? I thought you guys were dating."
"We're not."
"What makes you think we're dating?" I add on.
"Well after class I always see him walking you to the front even though he walks the opposite direction, and plus when you guys are walking together he's always looking at you. You know, giving you a certain look." Wait. Shawn and I walk the same way because he said he walks the same way home. This doesn't add up.
"Wait, he said he walks that way home? What are you talking about?" I'm so confused.
"No, once you get picked up by that mini van or whatever. Anyways once you get picked up, he turns around and walks right back in to school."
"Why would he walk back in to school?"
"He's on the wrestling team."
"Says who?"
"Says the flyers all around school. They have the names of the students that made it on the team." God, I sound so stupid. I didn't know any of this. I have to play it off like if I just forgot he was on the team. Never mind that, it's too late.
"Well thanks for the new information Diana" I say.
"Anytime."
By the time we stop talking, we're about 20 feet away from our classroom. Thank God we are. I'm tired of looking stupid in front of someone that knew information about Shawn that I didn't even know.
I walk in right on time. The class has barely been seated. Shawn gives me a half smile, but I ignore it. I sit down and just think about the new information Diana gave me.
I just don't get it. Why didn't he tell me any of that? We're two weeks in to summer school, which means two weeks of daily after school conversations. Why didn't he mention any of this? I know I shouldn't make any of this a big deal, but I really thought him and I finally established a good friendship. I mean I shared things about my life to him, they aren't major things, but still. I don't know, it just feels like I don't know him. Like it's not so hard to mention simple stuff like that, like "Hey. Guess what? I made it on the wrestling team!" Something like that. If I'd known I would've congratulated him and supported him. Maybe even show up to his meets. I don't know. I just want to be there. I want him to know that I care, and that I'll support him.
"Hey Amelia." Diana turns around and faces me.
"Yeah?" I try to say casually.
"So he's single right?"
"Yeah...he is."
"Great. Him and Mary would look great together," the girl with the nose piercing turns around and smiles at me. So that's Mary. "Don't you think they'd look great together?"
"Yeah, I guess." Mary seems sweet, but she never does her work and she always fails the weekly quizzes. I'm not trying to call her dumb or anything, but she just doesn't seem to care about school or even put any effort in to anything she's given. She just seems like bad news. Is she pretty? Yes. Is she sweet? I guess. Is she good for Shawn? Nope. Big fat no. I just can't see them together. He's a sweet, funny, charming, and happy guy. She just doesn't seem like the perfect fit for him. He's worth way more than that. He deserves someone better. Someone who values school. Someone who doesn't have a nose ring. Someone like me. Wait. No. That doesn't seem right. I mean someone who's like me. No that doesn't seem right either. Someone who's a good student, that I coincidentally am. Yeah, that's it.
Then again I don't know her. I can't be so quick to judge her. I need to stop and just drain my thoughts in to these work sheets.
*The end of class bell rings*
"Finally you're out, took you long enough." Shawn says while he's waiting for me to start walking with him.
"Sorry." I mumble. We continue to walk to the front of the gate in silence. I haven't said a word to him since the beginning of our walk.
Once we reach the front of the school, passing the gate, he finally says something.
"What's up with you?"
"Nothing." I say while I look down at my phone. Jack isn't here and he isn't answering any of my text messages. Great. I'm stuck with Shawn, and stuck with some more awkward silence.
"Seriously? What's wrong? You know you can talk to me about it."
"Can I really? Would you tell me something about your personal life that I don't know about already?" I snap. He looks confused.
"Of course I would." He says softly.
"Then why didn't you tell me you've been walking me across the whole side of the school for the past 2 weeks? Or even tell me you made the wrestling team. I didn't even know you were in to wrestling. You have never mentioned it." I finally snap.
"Why are you taking this so out of proportion? I'm sorry that I've never mentioned that. Okay?" He said in an annoyed tone.
"It's not about the wrestling, it's about the fact that you never share anything personal with me. It's the fact that I know nothing about you. I honestly don't even know who I'm walking with anymore. Because I know nothing about my so-called 'friend'." I once again snap.
"Okay I get it. I'm sorry." He once again apologizes. Whatever, I'm giving it up. This isn't worth the fight. I'm overreacting. I've been so dramatic these past couple of days, I'm probably going to get my period soon.
"You know what? It's fine. I'm sorry for making such a big scene. I'm just being a girl. You know, experiencing mood swings and all." I say.
Finally Jack pulls up. Took him long enough.
"I see Jack, guess I'll have to go. Bye."
"See you later."
"I'm sorry about today." I apologize.
"It's okay." He says with an adorable smug on his face. Adorable? Seriously Amelia? You're definitely out of it today.
