Mine (Austin Mahone Fan Fiction)

chapter 8. ♡

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"Lil's, I'm so sorry." He cried. Tears streamed down his face, what was happening?

"Aus-"

"You'll hate me." He mumbled wiping a tear that slid down his face. "I- Lily?" He asked as he began to calm down and look at me. 

"Yes, Austin?" I asked quietly looking into his eyes.

"I can't-" He stopped himself and a few more tears escaped his eyes.

"Spill it!" I demanded as I began getting impatient. He looked at me and shook his head, not making any eye contact with me. Okay?

"I can't- I can't be friends with you anymore." He finished, mumbling as a few more tears escaped his eyes.

What? What is happening? Emma. She did this. She hurt me. She she-

I noticed a few tears left my eyes, Austin still standing in front of me.

"L-"

"Leave." I said trying not to cry.

"But-"

"LEAVE!" I shouted about to break down any second now. He grabbed his stuff and left. And that was it. How long we weren't going to be friends? No one knows. A few weeks, months, years, forever? Today was just not my day. No day is not my day. Because always in the end, I would always be heartbroken.

 The second he shut the door. I was gone. I was broken. Tears, thoughts, even words went everywhere. I never cried this hard, over someone. But this wasn't just someone. He meant so much to me. Words can't explain, he was indescribable. Always making me smile. Being so kind. So perfect. He meant so much.

 Have you ever fell in love with someone so hard you can't imagine life without them? How about breaks down without them, because they are your everything? But they don't know or care. Because they'll never see you like that. Let's just say, I never knew I could feel this way about him. He brings out the best in me. He makes me smile. He makes me crazy. He knows the real me, the fake me, and all the 'mes' their possibly ever could be. He's the only person who seems to understand me, that's why he's special. He can actually make me smile, something not many people could make me do. I trust him. I believe in him. I love him so much. But he won't ever see me like that. Ever. Because he's my best friends, boyfriend.

 I mean, ex- best friends boyfriend.

But every single word I just said. I meant it. No one. And I mean no single fucking person in the world gets me better than him, but now he's gone, for god knows how long...

What am I suppose to do?

I have no one.

I will never be happy again.

I'll be lost.

It's so crazy. I honestly, never knew I would fall in love with him. We've been friends forever. And now, everything's just gone. Has that ever happened to you? You have someone so special. Means the absolute world to you. And then the next second, boom! There gone. Nothing but the past. Well Austin, he's my past, present, and future. He's my every to my thing. That doesn't make any sense.

He understands me. He gets me. I told you he would pick Emma over me, any day. I'm just his friend. I knew he always had a thing for Emma. He always talks about her. It's like he's changed with her, but he doesn't even notice it. I miss him. I miss his smile. I miss everything about him. I'll never be the same without him. My best friend. My love. My life. My world. My everything. All I want is to call him 4 letters, 1 word.