Mine (Austin Mahone Fan Fiction)

chapter 14. ♡

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"I love you"

Those words were like music to my ears. Love, is a very strong, hurtful word. When you tell someone you love them; make sure you mean it. Make sure they're worth it. Don't say it without truly saying it from your heart. 

I thought I was dreaming. Never in my 17 years would I imagine this. I looked at him in awe, this can't be happening. What is going on? 

I swallowed and opened my mouth, but nothing came out. What was I going to say? I love you too. Some part of me actually didn't want to say it back, weird, right? Do you ever want something so bad, but when you finally get it, you don't want it as much? That was exactly how I was feeling. Now Austin said those words to me, I- I don't feel it. I don't feel our connection. I guess what I'm trying to say is, he doesn't truly mean it. He doesn't actually love me. Maybe he's just stuck in the moment? Right?

"I'm sorry." I whispered, barely audible for him to hear. He looked up to me. 

"What do you mean?" He asked me, hurt obviously.

"I don't- I don't feel the same." I choked out as my eyes became watery.

"What do you mean- why- why did you kiss back then?" He asked. I shrugged.

"I guess, I guess I was just caught up in the moment." I lied. This isn't right. "Let's just be friends." I mumbled.

"No." He sighed as he grabbed his things, heading towards the door. I was surprised, but chased after him.

"Wh- what do you mean 'no'?" I asked him as I pulled him back, so he was facing me.

"I mean no I can't be friends with you." He let out. "I can't be friends with the love of my life. I'm sorry." He whispered. He opened the door and left. I just stood there, no I wasn't crying. I wasn't ok. I wasn't doing anything. I was- I was just heartbroken.

I wanted him for 17 years. I've waited for him all my life. But when he said he loved me, it didn't feel right. I didn't know what to say, because I do love him, it's just- just complicated.

Everything's complicated to be honest. Life's just a complicating puzzle, you have to solve your way through it. It's not easy, but it's not impossible.

I stood there still. No, I haven't moved. Why? I don't know. I wasn't thinking either though, which is odd because I always think. I had this particular person on my mind, he always was on my mind, he drove me insane, his name was Austin, Austin Mahone. 

After standing there for 30 minutes, it hit me. I'm so stupid. I grabbed my things and rushed out the door. I didn't even look at anything, I just ran. Ran to the person I love, I ran to Austin.

Once I arrived at Austin's house, I stopped to catch my breath. I noticed two cars were here, so I suggested his mom was home. I fixed my hair and outfit before walking up to the door. I took a deep breath and opened it only to be hurt.

Emily. Emily fucking Stewart. That bitch.

She stood there, rolling her eyes at me before talking, "What the hell do you want, Brown?" She spat. 

"What the hell don't I want, Stewart?" I replied back to her, sassy. She looked annoyed, but I could care less. 

"Em, who's there?" I heard Austin yell as he jogged up to the door, shirtless. 

Em? For real.

I didn't even get to glance at his abs, I just took off running. I heard multiple calls for my name, but I did the obvious, ignore them. I am so stupid! Thinking he would actually love me. He was just caught up in the moment, he would never love you.