Mine (Austin Mahone Fan Fiction)

chapter 10. ♡

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School finally ended. Everyone left with a smile on there face considering it was the end of the day. I scurried home and instantly fell onto my bed. I slept for god knows how long. Today was one of those long shitty days. They seem to go on forever and not end. I hate those days. I woke up, stretched and went downstairs to grab some food. I was starving. I ate random stuff from the fridge and was about to head back upstairs when my doorbell rang. I thought it was Chase, so I smiled and opened the door. Once I opened the door, my smile instantly dropped along with my juice box I was sipping, like a five year old. I sighed and began to open my mouth, "Austin, what the hell do you want?" I said as I eyed him. As much as I wanted to shut the door in his face, I didn't. I didn't because I felt bad. Why the fuck was I feeling bad?! He should be the on feeling bad. He's made me suffer. He- 

"Lil's." He said as he looked down from the ground, finally, looking up to me. "I need you." He said quietly. Okay, now I was confused. Like didn't he not want anything to do with me a few minutes ago? The fucks going on here.

"Uh-"

"I know you hate me, but I-"

"Your an ass." I finished for him.

"No, but I-"

"Austin..." I said as I began tapping my hand on my door that was wide open.

"Lily, I made a mistake. A horrible one. I want it to go away, but it won't." He sighed as he looked upset. 

"You made the mistake of letting me go." I whispered, looking down also. Austin took a seat on my porch, my legs eventually got stiff from standing up, so I sat next to him. "I get it, Emma's your girlfriend and you like her better just-"

"No. I don't like anyone better. I-"

"I just made a mistake." I finished. "Okay, just please leave before this gets out of hand and tears start to shred." I said kind of awkwardly. I was about to break down. I don't know why though. Maybe it was because I missed him so much. I missed his voice. His everything. But was it tears of joy or sadness? I don't know, but I'm hoping to find out.

"No." He stated firmly as he placed his hands in front of my door which I was about to slam. I sighed.

"What do you-"

Austin cut me off by dragging my hand inside, closing the door with his leg. He sat down on my couch and motioned me to sit next to him, but instead I sat diagonally from him. He sighed and looked down. "Lily, I- I can't stop thinking about you." He said finally breaking the awkward silence.

"What?" I whispered not believing the words that just slipped out of his mouth.

"You drive me insane. I- I don't know what it is. It's just you. Everything about you. Whe- whenever I see you, everything stops. The world stops. You probably don't feel the same way so..." He said as he stopped and looked down for a few seconds before looking back up to me. "I know you're probably thinking what am I doing here? What am I saying?" 

Yes, yes I was.

"I'm here because I need my best friend  back. I need my sarcastic, loud, funny, weird, obnoxious, beautiful, freaky, best friend back." He said as he got up and sat next to me, shifting his body facing mine. "I haven't been the same without you. I barely smile anymore. I'm myself when I'm with you and everything's happy when you're here. You make me complete." He said as he grabbed my hands. "I miss your sarcastic side comments, your inappropriate launguage, how you scrunch your nose when you get fustrated with something, and how you throw random stuff everywhere." He stopped to laugh as I did also. "I- I miss your laugh, it's- it's like music to my ears. I miss how we have our swing races at the park and how I'd always end up losing, oh and I do that purpose by the way." He said as he laughed and I did too. "I miss your hugs, your warm, loving hugs. I miss how everytime we watch movies we would make a huge fort and gather a bunch of candy to eat and watch. I miss how everytime you come over, you jump on my bed and make a huge mess. And how you bite your lip when you get confused. I miss how everytime I say something I end up getting cut off by you. I love when you get really sassy at me. And when you talk back. I love how I tell you the lamest jokes, only to see your smile. Because your smile- your smile lights up my whole entire world. It makes me crazy and I honestly don't know why." He said as he laughed lightly and shook his head, "I miss you so much, it feels like I can't breath without you. You're my air. I need you to live." He finished. I was completely speechless.