Mine (Austin Mahone Fan Fiction)

chapter 21. ♡

Emma. It was her. 

I dropped my phone on the ground, confused what to do. I was so caught up with Chase and Emily, I totally forgot about Emma. She's going to kill me. Murder me. I'm not ready- I'm not ready to talk to her, face her. Emily's bad, but Emma- like I said, could be cruel and harsh. She turns into a devil- a very evil one I may add. 

I shook my head, not knowing if I should pick my phone back up, but later enough, I did. I sighed as my fingers ran through my head numerous times. Nervously, I unlocked my phone and opened into her text message that I received a few minutes ago. As soon as I hit her name, I closed my eyes shut. What am I doing? I asked myself, but I was very fond of knowing what exactly I was doing; I was opening what could possibly be a death text, if that even makes a little bit of sense. 

I bit my lip- hard, as my eyes peaked open slowly, one by one. Once my eyes were fully open, I took a deep breath and grasped my phone tightly. I examined the text message. Reading every single detail. Every single word. I can't believe this.

Emma: Hey Lily. I know you think I'm going to murder you, which I was going to do, but I decided not to. Considering I already knew Austin and you had a lot of history together, I was seeing that was coming. I am hurt I have to admit and heartbroken as well, but  I guess that's what I get. I know you should be apologizing, but I feel that I should be apologizing as well for my earlier actions in our friendship. I honestly didn't mean to hurt you or your feelings. I just was being me- and I was a bitch, but I felt as we were close- like sisters. I guess I was just expressing myself by doing that; hurting you. Which is sick, but that's me. So, I'm going to be able to put this shit in the past, if you are also. Are you able to Lily? X

I read this text at least a hundred times. I couldn't believe her words. Was she serious? I don't know, but hopefully soon enough my question would be answered.

I rubbed my fingers together as I began texting her back.

Me: Yes, yes I am willing to put this all behind us. And Em's, I am truly sorry. I know you don't want to hear this bullshit, but I am the worst friend ever. I hurt so many people, including you; my best friend. I didn't mean for this to happen- no not at all. It just did, and it all happened so fast, I didn't realize all the people I was hurting. I feel pure regret and I always will. Throughout all this I realized, Austin isn't the one for me. We just did that because- well because we were confused, lost and alone. I know that isn't an excuse, but it was hard- it was hard lying to you. Their were numerous times were both of us would give up, we would fight and just get hurt in the end. I'm so sorry Emma. It was pointless to be honest. But also; I have found out that Chase is the one for me. Or at least that's what I think, I just was too blind to see it, but I know it will never work because I broke him, just like I did to you, and Austin. I'm sorry.

I checked my text before hitting the send button. Even though Emma was a bitch, we would always be best friends. I know, my friendship is confusing as hell, but Emma is kind of a good friend. 

Few minutes later, my phone vibrated with another text from Emma.

Emma: I'm sorry too. I accept your apology. I hurt many people too and I didn't realize as well, but we are not perfect people Lil's. We make mistakes, because we are human. Humans do that. And by the way, you and Chase were adorable together and I'm not just saying that Lil's. ;)

Me: I accept your apology too and thank you :) But he'll never be mine again. :(

Emma: Never say never. :)

Me: Got some Bieber, aye?

Emma: You know it. X ;)

Me: Well, I guess I should apologize to Austin too. :/