Holding On

Chapter 20

Taylor's P.O.V.

Mahatma Gandhi once said live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever

The next day Antonio and I left for work but I went to the firehouse. I sat in Boden's office as he walked in and sat on his chair

"I've had the past couple of days to think about this. And I really appreciate this offer, but I'm going to respectfully decline the offer" I spoke

He raised his eyebrows for a second "Well, that wasn't the answer I quite expected to hear"

I sighed "I know Chief, but I've gotten use to my life and my job at the District. And I would like to come back but"

"I understand Taylor, your in good hands with Detective Voight"

"Thanks Chief" I said standing up.

I walked out and headed back to the District. I walked over to the coffee room and prepared my coffee

"Hey" I turned to see Mouse stick his head in "You got a phone call"

"Thanks" With that he left and I went behind him with my coffee. I sat at my desk and grabbed the phone "Do you accept the charges that will be before answering this phone call from Stateville Prison?"

"Yes I'll accept the charges" I answered

"One moment please" The machine spoke

"Taylor Halstead"

I rolled my eyes "What the hell do you want?"

"Why did you leave yesterday. We weren't done with our conversation?"

"It was a mistake"

Derek chuckled in an evil way "Then why come see me everyday"

"Goodbye" I said in an annoying time and hung up. Please don't call again, I begged. Mouse came over and sat in his rolling chair with a cup of coffee

"So, who was calling from Stateville?"

I turned to look at him. Thank god no one was upstairs "Uh" Mouse and I were really close I knew I couldn't just lie to him "Derek.."

His mouth basically flew open "Correct me if I'm wrong but isn't the Derek guy the one who ordered your death"

I leaned back against my chair "Yea, that's the guy"

"So why did he call you?"

I looked around before turning back to him "Look Mouse you can't tell anyone, especially Jay and Antonio especially them"

Mouse stayed silent for almost a minute and moved his head sideways in hesitation "I don't know Taylor"

"Please Mouse, please"

He nodded in agreement "Fine, I promise"

"Well I've been going to see Derek at the prison these past few days"

"Seriously? Why would you do that?"

"I don't know, it's just I want answers. It's probably stupid but I just want to know"