today my view of you changed. I had always thought of you as some beautiful friend, someone real. I thought of you as my best friend and you were so incredibly special to me because you weren't like anyone I had ever known. I dehumanized you and I thought you were so amazing. I would do anything not to lose you. you meant the world to me, and I thought I meant the world to you. but there in the yard, it became so obvious how oblivious I had been. I wasn't special to you in the least bit. there were so many people you were much closer to, and I didn't matter. they were better, as someone always is. I trusted you with everything, and once again I'm just the odd one out, irrelevant. and finding all this out made me realize you were never who I thought you were.
and it humanized you.
