I can feel myself getting better. After everything I've thought about and gone through, I have this weird "I don't care about anything" attitude and it's not like one of those rebellious teen attitudes, I honestly just don't care about anything anymore. I don't care about consequences or what anyone think of me because anything people could ever say could never be worse of what I thought of myself at my lows. and I thought with this new personality, I would just be numb inside and my have to feel at all, which seemed refreshing compared to before. but with not caring, I've had so many more experiences in life. I don't care about being called weird so I do whatever I want and I roll down hills and I dance at random times and I talk loudly and I sing when a song is stuck in my head and shit I just have fun and it's so free and it makes me so happy and I'm getting so much better and I'm starting to accept myself and it's so nice.
