Good morning. Idk what I'm writing. I promised I wouldn't cut anymore. Burns? Biting? No. There's no point. It's just a different type of pain. Blame. Accusations. Things that upset me. Problems. Why? What is so wrong? I have people that love me. That care. Am I being controlled by society? My instinct to fit in? I don't need to be them, I need to be me. I fell in love on accident. I didn't think.. I wasn't thinking. I just went with it. And despite the odds, I found who I'm looking for, who I thought I'd never find. It was by mistake. At first it was a game. I think she was as surprised as I am, as I was. Back & forth, on & off. We're so confused. What are we supposed to do? How do we make this work? Is this meant to last? Or is this just a test? Why test? It's just more heartbreak. You know what's scary?
I don't know what happens next.
I'm scared we won't last.
I'm scared she won't stay when I leave. I'm scared she won' make it with me. I'm scared there isn't even an us. These are all things I don't know. But that's love. Expectations are set aside. You strongly believe in one another & sacrifice for each other. Go past boundaries & face fears. Love is a strong thing. Some refuse to bend to it's power. Why fight against something as such?
I've lost track of thoughts.
Vale.
Love,
Kaytlynn Sorrels
(I love you, Sky.)
March 17, 2016.
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The Partial Journal of Kona Firestar
De TodoIn this I write my emotions. Journal entries, how my day went, my poetry (and maybe a few others). Some of you might notice song quotes intertwined with a few entries or poems. That is because some songs inspire me. So go ahead and read this. I'll p...
