The bond is back... I'm sick to my stomach, I'm shaking out of disgust... these aren't my feelings. This isn't me. The bond is back in place and I don't know if I'm okay. This rage is burning inside me, this flame of anger is ignited again but fear is taking over as well. I don't know what to do anymore. Nyx has either gifted or cursed me to feel what she feels. Her headaches become mine, her sickness is mine, her fear is mine. It's almost unbearable. This isn't me.... whoever put this bond in place... of was a gift once, so I didn't have to worry about her. But it's... this bond is coming back full force and I can't stop it. She's so far yet every feeling, physically or emotionally, is in me, is controlling me. I question how. She starves herself and no matter how much I eat, my stomach grumbles with hunger. Once again, this is happening just like before. But this isn't her doing, and I don't know whose it is. I don't know if I want it to stop. But this bond.... so many questions. I'm shaking so much.... somebody help me.
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The Partial Journal of Kona Firestar
RandomIn this I write my emotions. Journal entries, how my day went, my poetry (and maybe a few others). Some of you might notice song quotes intertwined with a few entries or poems. That is because some songs inspire me. So go ahead and read this. I'll p...
