I'm restless, content less, needy, greedy, longing and yearning for something. I always listen to the voice that screams in my head, greedily crying for the person I'd die for, as a rational voice in the back of my mind says, 'You don't deserve it.' I'm taunted, haunted by memories. They'll never go away, they'll never leave me be. I'll never get what I want, what I need. I meant it when I said it, I can't live without you, my dearest, oh, my little leo. I sit here, at my computer, my back in pain from being here every day. I don't have friends anymore... they all went away. Two is all I got, and you were what I lost. Scared, but I cared, and I love you so much... but nothing's the same as it once was. I can't message you, I can't find you. You're brother won't even respond! I'm being ignored, reassured, because I'm so obsessed and left crying for you in my sleep. "Love isn't finding someone you can live with, it's finding someone you can't live without." We were soulmates together, always and forever, but the bond was torn apart and so strayed my heart... The greedy, the selfish. The needy, the helpless. I am moving on, though. I am trying my best to stay away from death, continuing and living my life as I once did, though letting go is so much more complicated. I write what I write because I speak the truth, though honesty could be a flaw, I follow loyalty law. Is breá liom tú, tine. I won't leave you alone this time.
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The Partial Journal of Kona Firestar
RandomIn this I write my emotions. Journal entries, how my day went, my poetry (and maybe a few others). Some of you might notice song quotes intertwined with a few entries or poems. That is because some songs inspire me. So go ahead and read this. I'll p...
