I keep biting my arm when I zone out... It's not normal, I know, but I keep trying to keep myself from thinking of painful, emotional thoughts. I feel like such a fuck up. I can't make up my mind... pick a feeling, she said. Well unfortunately, I'm a polyromantic, and I can't help it. I love four people, romantically feel for three, and I love only one very, very dearly. She haunts my thoughts, and it pains me to think of the memories, the days we spent talking. How many times I had to steal a phone or sneak off down the street in the night to get internet. I don't know if she knows how much I try for her. She's so far. I keep... I keep waiting. I don't really know if she loves me, I don't even know if she wants me. I know she's not one to break hearts. She's a really loyal girl, and hard to get. Why am I so... stuck. I don't know what to do anymore.
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The Partial Journal of Kona Firestar
RandomIn this I write my emotions. Journal entries, how my day went, my poetry (and maybe a few others). Some of you might notice song quotes intertwined with a few entries or poems. That is because some songs inspire me. So go ahead and read this. I'll p...
