The Partial Journal of Kona Firestar

8/8/2016

I have lice.... and it sucks. A lot. I have to stay in my house so my friends don't get it. My mom is mad at me because I'm the one who got the lice... yayyy, right? No. This is hell. And we're moving sometime next month. We have to rid the house of the lice, then treat our hair with the lice stuff and whatever and I just really wish lice didn't exist, 'cause now mom's attitude is out the roof and I sometimes wish I could just live my own life. Be a rich person with lots of friends, maids doing chores and cleaning my house. Going out however late I want and having a working relationship and just living a life without too much stress. I hate being yelled at and getting talked down to but hey I'm only 14, right? It's going to happen all my life and you know, no one used to yell at me as a kid. I was just some sweet girl. But they underestimated me then and they underestimate me now, and that shit is starting to get super irritating. I may not have good grades, but that's because the work is easy and boring. I won't put myself t work on such simple tasks. It's like a waste of my time. I'd rather spend my time making myself useful, whether selfishly or selflessly. That's all there is to it. I want to focus on English. The way English works, the dictionary, paragraphs, everything I need to know to be a writer. Even though that wasn't my childhood dream, I can imagine and write more than I can do other things. I wanted to be a singer, a pianist, a artist. But they all say I'm too young, to inferior. Too short, too this, too that. Well you know what I've said? Fuck you to the stuck up and the selfish, to the cheaters, the backstabbers, the drama makers, the magnets. Fuck you to the society that tries to control and destroy. This is not a dystopian or utopian society, this is reality, and you know what, I will be successful in life no matter what reality will throw at me. I am a rebellious child, and I'll stay stubborn.