The Partial Journal of Kona Firestar

Again...

In Spanaway, or somewhere in the middle of nowhere I'm at a store. Costco, I think it was. Near midnight, or just after sunset. The sky is dark, and I'm outside just wandering, wondering what to do next, when I pass her. Yes, the one. Brianna herself... and I wait a few moments for her to recognize me, but she seems to look past me twice. My heart is pounding in my chest, the excitement urging me to shout in joy, for I have finally met her. I try not to seem eager, and successfully so I am not. "Bri?" I ask in a loud enough voice to get her attention. She looks at me and her face lights up.

"Kitty?" She questions back, and the smile she has warms my heart.

"I can't believe I finally get to see you!" I swear I'm grinning like a fool, and she hugs me tightly, like I'm the best person she has seen yet.

"I've missed you so much!" she exclaims, and I just grin and bury my face in her shoulder.

"I've missed you too, Bri.." we separate from the hug and I think for a moment. "Where's your girlfriend?.."

"She's not here..." she says a little quietly.

"Want to go back to my place?" I ask confidently, yet I can here the soft sound of eagerness in my own voice.

"Sure." she responds with such a bright grin, and I look at her a little longer, my brain seeming to function slower as I soak in the features of her face. So gorgeous.

"Alright, let's go." I say finally, so happy to see her at last. We arrive at my house a little later, although it seemed as if I was just a block or two away. I sneak her inside and we go upstairs to my room. I sit down on my bed and she pushes me down, hugging me lovingly. I giggle and say, "Hi there."

She giggles in response, then says, "Hi~" She sits up, her legs on either side of my own, and she bites her lip gently. I just seem so mesmerized by her. Her gorgeous features seem to put me in a trance like a sirens voice. And when she bit her lip, I could feel the excitement press at the back of my throat, my breath hitches there as I watch her.

"So how have you been?" I ask, holding back another giggle.

"I've been good. How about you, Kitty?" I watch her bite her lip as she traces her hands down my arms.

"I've been pretty okay.." I trail off as I think of the right moment to flip us over and pin her down. Just as her hands reach mine, I intertwine them, then push her over and flip us within seconds, my legs on either side of her hips, and I slid my hands down quick enough to pin her wrists down above her head. "But you should know I'm never as great as I am when I'm around you." I bite my lip and giggle quietly, feeling victorious about my successful flip. Her cheeks are slowly turning red as she realizes she's been pinned by hers truly, me. "You're so cute! You're wittle cheeks a turning' wed~"

I giggle more as she immediately responds with, "Nuh!"

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I wake up, squinting my eyes at the clock and television on the black entertainment table. Fuck... No no no please let me sleep more, I want to have some more fun! I want to see Bri! I think to myself and roll over, trying to sleep more, but fail epically.

I didn't want to wake up today, and if I dream that again, I don't want to wake up unless Bri herself is talking to me or is going to. My account was hacked and my gmail was too, and I've never felt so emotional and torn like I have starting two weeks ago, after getting kicked out of my aunt's house. I regret so much more than I care to admit, but then again, the one thing I regret most means so little to others.

~Pastel Emoluti'