I'm finally just breaking. Turning into shattered pieces. I try to focus loving one person but no one seems to be enough. My short temper caused me to snap at someone I love dearly and that made her leave... leave me, alone, to deal with myself. No one wants to deal with me and those who do somehow don't seem good enough. Is anyone good enough? Probably only one person, I suppose. And I am aware that I am perfect to them... I know I've made a few mistakes, or maybe a couple thousand, but I learn from them. Most of the time... some bad habits are hard to break. I just... I'm sorry, to those who know me. I apologize sincerely for the harm I have caused. I just need to find myself... my mind is too clouded to focus, the voices are tempting and giving me choices. I can't help but snap when they just keep saying the same thing over and over and over, pushing me further into the dark depths of the forest that I don't want to be in. I'm losing myself, I'm finally breaking. I'm sorry if I can't be who you knew. People keep impacting my life and my diagnosis is fucking me up. I don't know how long I'll last...
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The Partial Journal of Kona Firestar
RandomIn this I write my emotions. Journal entries, how my day went, my poetry (and maybe a few others). Some of you might notice song quotes intertwined with a few entries or poems. That is because some songs inspire me. So go ahead and read this. I'll p...
