The bad boy saved me

Chapter 38

The next morning I woke up to him running his fingers through my hair.

"Goodmorning beautiful," he smiled.

"Morning," I got closer.

It was nice waking up to him. Waking up to him being ok. Knowing that he was alive and well.

"Still tired?" He asked.

"Little bit," I yawned, "can I go back to sleep."

"Go for it," he chuckled.

He set his hand down and I grabbed it. I set it back on my head.

"Spoiled much?" He laughed.

"You still love me," I smiled

He chuckled a bit more, "yes I do."

I laughed and closed my eyes.

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I woke up once more. I looked at the clock, 1:34. I stood and stretched. I walked into the bathroom and looked at myself. I brushed my hair and teeth. I walked out and down the stairs. He stood in the kitchen making lunch. I walked over to him and he pulled me to him.

"God damn," he smiled, "could you sleep any later?"

I shrugged and leaned my head against his arm. He wrapped it around me and placed his chin on my head. He held me against his body. His heart beat slow and steady.

"Are you ok?" He asked.

"I'm great," I smiled.

He chuckled and continued making lunch.

"Hungry?" He asked.

I shook my head, "no not really."

"I'll make you something anyways," he said.

"You don't have to," I said.

"You're right," he stepped back, "but I want to."

I smiled and wrapped my arms around him. He slowly picked me up and wrapped his arms around my body. I wrapped my legs around his body and gently sucked on my neck. I leaned my head to one side giving him more access. He walked over to the couch and gently set me down.

This will end up being the first time I've had sex since I was raped. I'm scared honestly.

Should I let this happen?

He continued to kiss my body as he laid me down on my back. He got on top of me and looked at me. He set his hand over my heart and felt it racing.

"Don't be scared," he sighed, "I won't hurt you. You're safe."

I nodded and he sat up. He knew that I really wasn't ready. Yes, I wanted to but I was terrified. I have to get over the fear. It's with Jace, he won't hurt me. He loves me.

"I know," I whispered, "it's ok."

He looked at me and his eyebrows furrowed, "are you sure? If you don't want to it's ok. I understand."

"It's ok," I nodded, "I'm sure."

He slowly leaned in and pressed his lips to mine. We moved in unison. He pulled away and moved back to my neck. I grabbed the bottom of his shirt and slowly pulled it off. My shirt stays on but he takes off my bra. He slowly unbuttoned and unzipped my shorts. He traced my underwear before sliding them off. My heart was thing faster than ever.

Stop Lola. It's Jace. He isn't going to hurt me. He won't. I know this.

I used my feet to slide down his sweat pants and boxers. He took off my underwear and looked into my eyes.