Typical Blogger//Joe Sugg

Chapter 32

Olivia's pov

I slowly opened my eyes and looked around my surroundings. Where the hell was I? My head was killing me and my arms were aching. I looked down at them and I was presented with cuts and scars all the way up them. What the hell had I done? And then it clicked. Then I remembered everything. The baby, Joe, the argument, the pain and the darkness.

"Ah so your awake then"

A young man came in who I assume was the doctor

"Ok take these"

He passed me a glass of water with a few tablets. I dropped the tablets into my mouth and swallowed them down with the water.

"How are you feeling Miss Bently"

"My head hurts a bit but other than that I feel fine"

"Ok I think we are going to have to keep you in for tonight to take some more tests but other than that you are doing great"

"Ok"

"Theres some people outside waiting to see you, would you like me to send one of them in"

"Sure"

He was just about to walk out of the room before I stopped him.

"Doctor!"

"Yes"

"How's my baby doing"

"He or she is doing absolutely fine, no problems at all"

"Thank you"

I feel relieved. No matter how much this baby had shaken up my life. I wouldn't want anything to happen to it. It's just me and them now. We only have each other but that's all we need. I waited anxiously for someone to come back into my room. Who was outside. I wanted it to be Joe. No matter how much I didn't want to see him. I just wanted to know if he cared or if he was sorry. My mind was put to ease as Zoe walked into the room.

"Zoe!"

"Liv thank god you ok"

She said running over and giving me a hug

"Never do that again"

She pulled over a chair from the side and placed it right next to my bed so she could sit and talk to me

"Who else is out there"

I asked wanting know if he cared

"Chai, Caspar, Alfie"

My heart sank.

"And Joe"

He must care then if he came. Although he shows a funny way of showing it.

"Liv how are you honestly"

"I'm fine absolutely fine"

I lied trying to convince myself that there was nothing wrong.

"Honestly"

"Seriously I'm fine Zoe"

"Ok if you say so"

"Well your going to be an auntie"

"What seriously"

"Yeah your my best friend of course I want you to be an auntie"

She hugged me

"So when did you find out"

"What day is it today again"

"Thursday"

"I found out earlier on"

"I'm so happy for you"

"Thanks Zo at least someone else is"

We talked for a bit more until I decided I needed to speak to Chai. Zoe gave me one last hug before leaving the room to go get Chai. Minutes later Chai came bursting through the roman looked at me. I smiled softly.

"Your an idiot, you know that right"

I laughed quietly

"You scared me Liv, when you said those words it hit me like a tonne of bricks of how much he hurt you, I'm so sorry Liv"

I hugged him. It felt good to have someone other than Zoe who cared about me or understood me.

"How you doing"

"Honestly"

"Of course"

"I feel like shit. I keep telling myself I'm fine when really I'm not, when really I fell useless and unloved"

I started my eyes starting to water.

"It feels like shit knowing that the one person you had fallen for no longer loves you or never loved you. I can't believe I wasted all the fun times we had and the moments we shared on one stupid mistake that I made. The one person I trusted no longer trusts or loves me and it feels like shit. But he's right I'm useless an idiot and a slut"

I cried

"Liv listen right now, you are not useless, an idiot or a slut. Your amazing your doing whatever a girl your age would do. It's not your mistake it's his and he needs to come to terms and realise that. You have loads of people who care about you Liv. We all support you with your decisions and we all love you"

I hugged him. I loved Chai not in the way your probably thinking. A family way he feels like an older brother. One that I never had. Chai and I talked for a bit longer until I asked the question that was really playing on my mind

"Who brought me here"

"Caspar. I rang him up because I knew something was wrong so he went to look for you and he found you lying there"

"I need to see him"

"Go see him later you need to sleep it will help you"

"You'll take me to see him tomorrow won't you"

"Of course see you later Liv"

He kissed the top of my head and left the room leaving me falling asleep into the life I wished I lived.

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I opened my eyes adjusting to the brightness of the room. I looked around and realised that I was still in the hospital and still heartbroken. I looked over to the side and saw Joe sitting on the chair next to my bed.

"Your awake"

I remained silent

"Listen Liv"

"Get out"

I muttered

"Liv wait"

"Please just get out"

"I'm sorry Liv"

"Please get out"

He didn't bother saying anything more. He walked out the room but stopped at the doorway he whispered

"I love you"

Before walking down the corridor. A single tear fell done my cheek. There's a saying 'If you love someone let them go. If it comes back to you it's yours, if it doesn't it was never meant to be'. That's what I was doing I was letting go of Joe and all the pain and anger and I was waiting, waiting to see if he came back to fix up the hurt and sorrow. But the thing is no matter what happened I love him and I always will.

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