Typical Blogger//Joe Sugg

Chapter 53

Olivia's Pov

"He raped you!?"

Shit I forgot I wrote about that and I'm not ready to talk about it yet especially not to Joe.

"Well"

"Come in"

I sighed moving out the way to let Joe in closing the door behind him.

"So he raped you"

Joe said sitting down. I nodded.

"Omg that sick bastard I'm gonna kill him"

Joe said standing back up hitting over a glass which was on the table which then shattered into a million pieces

"Sorry"

Joe muttered.

"Just calm down Joe, it's not a big deal"

"Not a big deal he touched you Liv, in ways that makes me want to kill him"

I picked up the dust pan and brush that was in one of the cupboards and started to clean up the mess

"I swear to God if I ever see that man, he better run before I beat up his ass"

"Oh Joe get over it, I have. Hell yeah it was tough but people have it a whole lot worse and to be truthful that wasn't the worst thing he's done which I'm not going to tell you about because otherwise you will be even more mad. Was it scary. Yes. Did it hurt. Yes. But I can't get over it if I don't move on and forget about it"

"But he touched you Liv"

"He did it in more ways than one"

"You know you're not making the situation better for me"

"Sorry but it's life, things happen and we have to move on because other wise we will never get over things"

"Oh come here"

Joe said opening his arms. I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his waist. He whispered into the top of my head

"Your never leaving me do you know that right"

"I never want to"

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Joe had calmed down. It took one broken glass and a hug for him to know I didn't care anymore. It sounds as like I didn't care but of course I did care, when it first happened I was mortified and scared for my life. I felt self conscious and horrible but then I started going to therapy and slowly over time I realised it doesn't define me and I shouldn't let it bother me. I shouldn't let it take over my life. I shouldn't care about it because other wise he wins. He wins the battle that I've tried desperately to fight.

Joe and I were laying on the sofa. Spooning each other to be exact. Me being the little spoon and Joe being the big. We were watching a Christmas film as their was only about 18 days till Christmas.

"OMG do you know what I haven't got a Christmas tree, I need to have a Christmas tree"

Joe nodded

"Omg you can help me we can buy one and decorate this weekend, how .."

"Liv what else did he do to you in there"

Joe said interrupting me. I sighed removing myself from the sofa

"Omg Joe, I thought we were over this"

"We were, but not anymore"

"I can see that"

"Oh come on Liv tell me please I want to know"

"No I don't want to tell you"

"Why not?"

"Because you get angry and you moan and you shout and in all honestly you scare me"

"I don't mean to scare you, it just gets me angry"

"Exactly which is why I don't want to tell you"

"Please I promise this time I won't get angry"

I gave Joe a look

"I promise"

Joe said

"Oh fine!"

I huffed

"Well he hit me and called me names and locked me in a room"

"I know that"

"Well what do you want to know"

"You said that um him raping you wasn't the worst thing that he had done. What was the worst"

"Oh Joe"

"What"

"Listen he hurt me.."

"Yes I got that

"Let me finish for God's sake. He hurt me with a knife. Ok he ran the knife all down my back deeply so much that I thought I was going to die"

"Oh Liv"

Joe said pulling me to him. I was facing away from him. He slowly started to life up my top so he was facing my bare back. He ran his finger along the scar that covered my whole back. He started to linger kisses all over it.

"Do you know what this weekend, we're going to buy you the best tree you can find with the most expensive decorations there is and we're going to put it up together and we're going to have the best Christmas you could ever ask for because I want to make it up to you Liv because I wasn't there to look after you"

I turned round and kissed him.

"I mean it"

Joe whispered

"The best Christmas ever"

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Happy Christmas Eve!! I hope you enjoyed the chapter, I decided to upload it today instead of tomorrow as tomorrow is going to be busy. So I wish you all a happy Christmas and I'll see you soon

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