I Don't Think You Know

Unwanted

@ChloeG99

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I can try to tell you my story,

Will you promise to listen close?

Let me tell you a story,

That no body will ever really know.

I was innocent and kind,

No I hadn't built KEEP OUT walls,

I wasn't wary or wanting,

Did that make me a fool?

I didn't have special friendships,

I was open to all who cared,

Because when you're young and innocent,

About these things you don't get scared.

I was a budding literary opponent,

I lived in a world of books,

But when I started to grow older,

People would say 'Ew! Reading sucks!'

So I tried to change myself to be 'better',

I wasn't convinced I was worse,

I no longer openly read books in the playground,

I no longer wrote in verse.

I wore my hair to the fashions,

I swore and I joked around,

My new friends, they really liked this,

I didn't feel lost, I felt found.

The teachers started writing home,

How I wasn't concentrating enough,

But I didn't care, wouldn't listen,

This new life people convinced me I loved.

Then suddenly my eyes were open,

I knew what this transformation was about,

But it was too little too late now,

From this life there was no way out.

I started to listen and write again,

Huddled in the playground amidst friends,

But they didn't like this, 'it's stupid',

And then a means finally met its end.

I was waiting for the new feeling,

The feeling which would bring back my name,

But no body cared about the nerd,

Turns out I waited in vain.

Did nobody care about intelligence?

They laughed at the fact I wore glasses,

So I only wore them when I had to,

The nerdy solids, liquids and gases.

But I faked it till I made it,

Well not really but you know,

And I haven't said in detail,

But that's how my story goes.