Save Me

seventy seven

"Hey.." I say into the phone.

"I need someone to talk to..."

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[Jasmine's POV]

"He told you right?" My voice shakes.

"Yeah." She whispers to me.

Do you hate me?" I ask her.

"No. Of course not, Jazzy." She says back into the phone. I breathe out a sigh of relief, I thought she would hate me.

"But he does.." I say to her. Anthony hates me and it's all my fault. Why didn't I just tell him that I was pregnant? I mean I know that it's my decision and my body but I could have at least talked to him about it.

"Anthony doesn't hate anyone. He's angry, but I think he just needs time." She says to me. She's lying.. I know he hates me. I hate me.

I killed my child because I was single. What kind of logic is that? I don't regret it though. I have a career that I can't continue if I am pregnant. I don't want a baby, I never have. But mostly, I know that Anthony would give up everything to provide for that child. He would even give up Olivia.

God, he loves her. It's so obvious. The way he looks at her, smiles every time she does literally anything, he is so in love with her. He looks at her like she is the entire night sky, so beautiful and breathtaking. I wish someone loved me like he loves her.

"Jazzy, are you there?" She asks.

"Ya, sorry. I was just thinking." I say to her.

"How are you feeling?"

"Terrible cramping like the doctors said there would be but other than that I am ok." I tell her. Olivia is actually the sweetest human in the world. "I should really go to bed, I'm exhausted."

"Ok, goodnight Jazz." Olivia says.

"Goodnight, thanks for being an amazing friend." I say before hanging up.

[Anthony's POV]

Olivia comes into my bedroom a little while after she goes on the phone. She slips into bed and I lay next to her as she falls asleep. Once she is asleep I go into my kitchen and get out a bottle of bourbon.

The first drink goes down my throat easily, leaving a burning feeling as it travels through my body. Another drink goes by and I ache for the liquor to kick in.

A few glasses later I finally feel something. I smile at the amazing feeling. I remember what Jasmine said to me.

Everyone knows you're in love with Olivia except for Olivia.

I laugh a little. She had no right to say that. I am so mad at her. She kills my child and then has the audacity to remind me of how I feel about Olivia.

I take another sip. Damnit. Everything is spinning and everything feels good. The liquor burns my throat.

I would've been a great father. I would've had a child of my own. I have always wanted kids, I know that Jasmine didn't but she knew that I did. What if I had my own son to play baseball with and take to games? Or a little girl to spoil? Will I ever have kids?

Another sip, I am struggling to stay in my chair without falling off. My vision blurs as I set the bottle down. I sway off the chair and stand up, my chest is warm and heavy. I laugh as I sit back down in the chair.

Olivia. My sweet Olivia. I love her. I laugh loudly as I admit it to myself. I love Olivia. But I know that she doesn't love me. She will never love me.

Hello everyone, I hope you liked this (:

Anthony loves Olivia. What a big surprise. Who would've known? I did. I knew that he did. Since the very beginning of this story.

- aibhlinn