Save Me

one hundred one

My fingers fiddle with the necklace for the rest of the movie and think about how much I have hurt Anthony. After the movie ends I say goodnight to Lin and get in my bed, falling asleep slowly.

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[Olivia's POV]

I woke up to Sebastian climbing on top of me and Lin and Vanessa standing in the doorway.

"Morning?" I say in a groggy voice.

"Merry Christmas!" Lin says, climbing in my bed with Sebastian.

I smile and give Sebastian a hug.

"Can't I just sleep for another hour? I'm exhausted! It's like six in the morning, Lin." I complain.

"I think you are going to want to check what's under the tree." Vanessa says with a smile.

I stare at Lin and say, "You got me a present?"

He winks at me and I smile at them.

"Let's go Seb!" I say, leading the small boy into the living room. My heart drops when I enter the room, there are presents underneath the tree. I haven't gotten Christmas presents in years.

Sebastian begins to open his gifts while I sit on the couch with Lin. Vanessa brings me a small box wrapped in red paper.

"Here you go, sweetheart." She says. I gratefully take the box and shake it with a grin. I begin to tear off the paper and open up the box. I pair of keys lay at the bottom of the box.

"No. Lin. Vanessa. No, this is too much." I say, knowing what they got me.

"Look outside!" Lin says. "It wouldn't fit under the tree."

I laugh at him and walk towards the front door. I open the door and see a black jeep in the driveway.

"No. You guys, I can't." I say.

"Hush, now I don't have to haul you around the city." Lin says.

I walk outside in my bare feet and run to the car. I hop into the drivers seat and freak out. I feel so bad that they spent so much money on me, I would have been fine getting no presents. I don't deserve this, I don't deserve them.

I go back inside the house and see Sebastian playing with a new toy he got. I grab a large box with my name on it and sit on the couch. I tear off the paper and open the box to find a guitar. My very own guitar.

"Thank you guys." I say. "This has been the most amazing Christmas." I hug them.

I open up a few more presents, most of them are clothing and things like that. I fiddle with the necklace Anthony gave me and think of him. I wonder what he is doing today for Christmas? Maybe he is with a girl.. Probably. Let's face it, when things didn't work out between us it was only time before he would find someone else. I mean he is Anthony Ramos, and I'm just me.

I hold the sun part of the necklace to my mouth and I think of the way his lips felt against mine. So soft and smooth. The way his hand grabbed my face and pulled me close to him. How his arms perfectly wrapped around my waist and made me feel safe. I miss him. Why did I tell him I don't love him? I do love him, more than anything. It makes me feel sick knowing that I hurt him, the look on his face when I yelled at him. He is too good for me.

[Anthony's POV]

I spent the morning of Christmas alone, a few friends stopped by here and there to say Merry Christmas. I decide to head to a bar around eight pm out of boredom. I get in my car and drive to the nearest one.

"Bourbon, please." I say to the person working behind the bar and wait for my drink. Once it arrives I drink it all and ask for another one. A couple more and a beer in my hand I am finally beginning to feel numb.

I take a swig of my beer and lock my jaw as it hits my throat. What is the point of all of this? Living life without the person you love? I can't force her to be with me anymore. I have to let her go. Let her date people her own age. Maybe I should find someone my own age?

I see a girl alone on the other side of the bar, drinking a beer like I am. I wonder what she is doing here on Christmas.

I walk over to her and sit next to her, I am almost stumbling by now because of how drunk I have gotten. She kind of looks like Olivia. Long brown hair, freckles, green eyes. Or maybe I'm just really drunk. Probably the latter.

"Hey.." I slur. "What's your name?"

"Please, I'm not in the mood. My boyfriend just left me." She says back, taking a drink.

"Maybe I'm just looking for someone to talk to." I defend myself.

"What would we have to talk about? I'm all alone on Christmas because he is in love with someone else." She says.

"The girl I am in love with told me that she doesn't love me." I tell her.

"I'm sorry." She says. "It really sucks."

"She gave up on me." I say, taking a drink. "How am I supposed to live without her? She is my sun and I need her. But I can't make her unhappy. I have to let her go."

"Sometimes that is the best thing you can do." She says.

"Living without sunshine." I say.

Hello everyone, sorry I didn't post yesterday, I was super busy. I can't believe that there is only an hour left in 2016. This year actually sucked and I am not lying when I say that it was the worst year of my life so hopefully 2017 pulls through.

I love you.

- aibhlinn