Save Me

one hundred twenty two

"Don't let me go." I say, reaching for her hand but she pulls it away from me.

"Please.. Just leave me alone." She says.

I stand up and look at her but she turns away from me.

"I never wanted to hurt you and I will never stop trying to make things right." I say and leave the room. 

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[Olivia's POV]

"Oh my god, you did so good!" I say, wrapping my arms around Ben's neck and kissing him. He just scored the winning goal for his teams first game.

"I'm glad you could come." He says after kissing me back. "There's a party for the team at Daniel's house.. You want to come?"

"Yeah sure, let's go." I say and walk with him to his car.

We arrive at Daniel's house shortly and I already hear the loud rap music blasting from inside. I thought this was just a team party? I guess not. 

We walk in the house together and I am overwhelmed by the amount of people that are here. I decide to get a drink, knowing that Ben will stay sober and take me home later. 

I begin to feel tipsy and take my cup with me to find people to talk to because Ben disappeared somewhere. 

"Laura!" I say, spotting my friend walking through the door. We chat for a while and hang out with our other friends that arrive. 

"Olivia." I hear my name and turn to see Ben. I walk to him and he begins to kiss me. He grabs my hand and takes me upstairs and into a room, locking the door behind him. 

He walks towards me and begins to kiss me roughly. I can feel his heart racing in his chest. 

"Ben, what are you on?" I ask, pulling away from him. His eyes are bloodshot and his pupils are enlarged. 

"I don't know.. I forgot. A little bit of this.. Little bit of that." He says and leans in to kiss me again. 

I put my hand on his chest and turn my head and say, "But your sober. Ben, this isn't good." 

"Why are you freaking out? It's not a big deal." He groans. 

"It is a big deal, your an addict." I say. 

"I'm not a fucking addict." He defends himself. 

"You literally were in rehab, Ben." I say. 

"It's fine, it's just one night." He says. He begins to kiss me again even though I don't want to drop the conversation yet. I feel his hands creep towards my jeans zipper and I begin to panic. This can not be happening right now. 

I pull away from him and say, "Stop." 

"Come on.. We've been dating for like three months." He says. 

"Look, I'm just not ready.. You don't get it I-" I begin to tell him I was raped but stop once I feel his hand collide with my face. He slaps me two more times as I stumble backwards and fumble with the door. 

"Oh my god.. Olivia, I'm so sorry!" He says, walking towards me. "I didn't mean it, it was the drugs I swear. I would never hurt you." 

I feel him gently touch my waist and pull me into a hug. I am hyperventilating in his arms. My mind flashes back to when I was living with John and Trish. Being hit everyday until I could barely stand up. Ben isn't like those people, this was just an accident, I tell myself. 

I wrap my arms around him and say, "It's okay.. It's okay, I know you didn't mean it." 

He kisses the top of my head and I think back to when I was with Anthony. He never hurt me like this.. Is this what normally happens in relationships? Fights happen right? Anthony was just an exception. It's not going to happen again. 

"I should probably go home though, I'm pretty tired." I say to him, wanting to get out of here as soon as possible. 

"I can't really drive right now, you could sleep here with me?" He offers. 

"No, that's okay. I can call someone." I say. Who can I call? The only person that would come get me without a huge lecture is Anthony but do I really want to call him? 

Ben walks me outside and then leaves me to sit on the curb. I pull out my phone and look through the phone through blurry tears. 

I forgot how drunk I was as I look through my contacts. 

I press the call button next to Anthony's name and wait for him to answer. 

"Olivia?" He answers. 

"Hey, I really need a ride. I wouldn't have called if it wasn't important." I tell him, I sniffle and wipe tears from my eyes. 

"Olivia..." He says. 

"Look it's either you come get me or I walk home in the middle of the night." I say. 

"Yeah, I'll be right there. Text me the address." He says and hangs up. 

I see Anthony's car pull up next to me and I get into the passenger seat.

"Are you okay?" He asks as I buckle up. 

"Yeah, I'm fine." I respond. "Just take me home." 

He nods and begins to drive me to the theater in silence. We arrive and I reach for the door but he locks it before I can open it. 

"What happened?" He asks.

"Nothing." I say, not reaching his gaze. "Let me out." 

"Olivia, I know you. What happened?" He asks again. 

"It's none of your business, Anthony! You aren't in my life anymore! I don't need you to just hang around and glue me back together whenever I fall apart, okay. I have a boyfriend for that.. I have a boyfriend.." I say and begin to break down in tears. I have a boyfriend that hit me, I think to myself. 

Anthony unbuckles and leans towards me, wrapping his arms around my shaking body. "Shhh.. It's okay. I'm here." 

I cry in his arms until I begin to calm down. 

"I'm sorry." I say. 

"Don't be, I'm here for you." He says with a smile. 

I feel my heart begin to become heavy. I feel a physical pull towards him right now. I don't want him to leave. I need him. 

"Could you stay with me tonight?" I ask, timidly. 

"Of course." He says and parks the car. 

He helps me out of the car and I begin to walk, wobbling back and forth. I am still very drunk. We arrive at my room and he helps me take off my shoes and he takes off his sweatshirt for me to wear, he also grabs me a pair of shorts from my drawer. 

"Look away." I slur, and begin to get changed in the corner. He smirks and turns around so he can't see me. I wish Ben was more like him. No, I love Ben. I love him. 

"Okay, I'm done." I say and Anthony turns around. 

"Here, go into the bathroom." He says, I oblige and head into the room with him. 

He picks me up and sets me on the bathroom counter and wets a towel and begins to gently wipe away my makeup. His rhythmic motions are intoxicating as he glides the fabric from my forehead, to my nose, over my lips to my chin, circling both cheeks, until all my makeup is gone. We stay like that for a moment. Me, sitting on the counter, and him standing close in front of me. 

I reach for his arm and hop down and get into my bed, he follows me and gets in bed after me. He wraps his arms around me and I feel sleep slowly take over me as I sync my breaths with his. 

Hello everyone, so I decided to use one of the ideas that one of you left on my last chapter because i loved it. I can't remember who said it but cheers to you because I really liked it! 

Sorry I haven't been on in a while, been lacking motivation and such. 

I love you. 

- aibhlinn