Save Me

one hundred five

After an hour or so I head back to the theater and say hello to everyone who is getting ready for the show. I climb up to my room and finish my homework and listen to the show through the floor. My heart flutters every time I hear Anthony sing. Why can't I get over him? 

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[Olivia's POV]

After I hear the final note of the show I get off the floor and hop in my bed and play my guitar for a while. I hear a knock at my door and I tell whoever it is to come. 

My door swings open and I see Anthony, he is wearing dark jeans and an old sweatshirt, his hair pulled back into a curly messy ponytail. 

"Hey, just wanted to check in and see how you are doing.. It's been awhile." He says, standing awkwardly in the doorway. 

"How was the show?" I ask him, breaking the silence.

"Great, same as always." He says with a half grin. 

"Great." I mirror the smile. "You can come in if you want." 

He walks in and sits down on the foot of my bed. 

"Can we catch up soon?" He offers. "You could come over after school tomorrow?" 

"I don't know, Anthony." I say, lifting my hand to mess with my hair. 

"What are those?" I hear him say and follow his gaze to my now exposed wrist. My heart begins to pound and I pull my sweatshirt over them. 

"Nothing, I got scratched by Laura's cat." I say quickly. 

"Bullshit, show me your wrists." He demands, I look away and keep my wrists covered. "Olivia!" 

I ignore him again and look down at my covered hands. He grabs my arms and pulls my sleeves out of the way. He runs his thumb over the pink marks which causes me to shiver. No, this cannot be happening. What if he tells Lin? 

"Olivia.." He softly says. "Why? Why did you do this to yourself?" 

"Why do you care?" I say quietly. 

He looks at me with confusion, "Why do I care? Why do you always ask this? Olivia, you mean everything to me. You consume my every single thought. Every day I think about if you are okay and if anything is wrong. I love you and the thought of you hurting yourself makes me sick to my stomach."

I still say nothing and pull my sleeves back over my scars. 

"Look at me." He says, he turns my chin and wipes a tear off of my face. "Baby, you are beautiful and kind and talented and so many other things. You are worth so much, no you are worth everything! So why are you doing this to yourself? Is someone being mean because screw them, they don't matter-" 

"Nobody is causing me to do this..." I tell him. 

"Then what?" He pushes. 

"I do it because.. I do it because I deserve it." I admit to him. 

He moves closer to me and pulls me into his arms. "You don't deserve pain, my love. You deserve love and kindness."

"Please don't tell Lin, he already worries about me so much." I beg Anthony. 

"Olivia.. I have to, I can't let you keep hurting yourself." He says softly, stroking my head. 

"Please, Anthony!" I cry. "Lin does so much for me and if he finds this out he will never let me out of his sight. I won't do it anymore, I promise." 

"Baby.." He whispers, kissing the top of my head. "He can get you help." 

"Please, I'll get help.. I can't tell him." I beg. 

He strokes the top of my head and whispers, "Okay.. But I'm going to check everyday for new cuts and if there are anymore I will tell him." 

I nod in agreement and lay in his arms, not wanting to move. 

"Come home with me." He says into my ear, brushing my hair out of the way. 

"No.." I whisper as his lips graze my neck. 

"Then I'm staying here with you, I'm not leaving you alone tonight." He insists. 

I sigh and say, "Alright.." 

He smiles and pulls the covers down so I can get underneath them and he follows. He wraps his arms around me and I nuzzle up against him. 

He kisses my cheek and says, "Goodnight, love." 

"Goodnight, Anthony." I say back and match my breathing rate to his and let sleep take over me. 

Hello everyone, thought this chapter was cute and I hope you enjoyed it. Olivia and Anthony stress me out because if I don't make them a couple, everyone hates me. But if I do make them a couple, everyone hates me too. Please, comment if you want them to be together or not! 

Anyways, how are you all doing? Let me know what is going on in your lives! Any drama, rants, or just say hey. 

Love you. 

- aibhlinn