Save Me

one hundred ten

"No, I'll be okay. Thank you though." I say. He smiles and waits til I am under the covers and turns out the lights for me and leaves me alone in my dark room. My wrists are throbbing and I can't stop thinking. How could he do this to me? Why doesn't he love me anymore?

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[Olivia's POV]

I just want to ask Anthony why he suddenly changed his mind about me. I mean, just a few hours before he called things off he told me that he loved me. I just don't understand what happened.

God I hate Rose. I know that I shouldn't hate her because she didn't do anything wrong. Anthony does deserve to be with her. I'm sure she is a wonderful person.

I hate Anthony for what he did to me. He played with my heart and then broke it into a million pieces like he never even cared about me. I can't even think about him without wanting to scream. I pull out my phone and begin a text to him.

me : how could you do that to me? look, i know that things between us probably never would've worked out but you could have at least told me that in the beginning instead of playing with my feelings.

I hit send and wait for a response which arrives in less than a minute.

anthony : please don't text me anymore

I shut off my phone and begin to cry. He seriously does not care about me at all anymore.

I can't just sit in my room all day and let him control me like this. I get out of bed and get dressed to go on a run. I haven't eaten yet this morning so I will have negative calories.

I slip on a pair of leggings that barely fit me anymore, they are baggy and loose. I throw on a sweatshirt and grab my shoes and head out the door.

Once I arrive at the hiking spot that Laura told me about I begin to sprint down the path. I let all of my feelings for Anthony he washed away as I push my body faster and faster. My body is throbbing in pain and begging me to stop but I keep going. I weighed 94 pounds this morning, I have to get down to 90.

My heart is screaming at me to stop running but I keep going. Fuck Anthony, I hate him. No I don't, I love him. No, stop it Olivia! Get over him!

I stop as I feel my lungs pressing against my chest. Then I collapse to the ground and everything goes dark.

Hello everyone, cliffhanger ahhhh. I used to do them all the time in the summer and it drove you guys crazy so I decided to do another one. Plus it makes it easier to write the next chapter.

How do you think Anthony should respond to Olivia passing out?

I love you, i'm writing this in my guidance office because my anxiety sucks!

- aibhlinn