[A/N] Maraming salamat sa patuloy na nagbabasa po nito! :)
This is new. Kinakabahan tuloy ako sa Dad ko. Baka kung ano na namang kalokohan ang ginagawa nya. Nung sinundo nya ako sa school kanina, maganda ang bihis nya. Di tuloy ako naniniwala na wala syang ipapakilala saken. Tapos ngayong nasa loob kaming dalawa ng sasakyan, ayokong magsalita. Naglaro na lang ako sa phone ko.
"We’re here.” Biglang sabi ni Dad. Di ko namalayan na nasa Cemetery pala kami. “It’s been so long since the last time we went here.” Malungkot nyang sabi.
“I remember, I was 5? Or 6 maybe?” Sabi ko. Nauna na akong bumaba ng sasakyan at inalala ko kung saan nakalibing ang Mommy ko.
It’s a cold afternoon, wind flew from the south. Together with my Dad, we walk in silence to the top of the hill. Beside the acacia tree, dun nakahimlay ang Mommy ko. Nilagay ni Dad ang dala nyang flowers sa tapat ng puntod ni Mommy. Her favorite flower was white roses and cerastium (yung flower sa cover), yung hindi pa namumulaklak. Dad said that Mom wants to see it bloom. Ginamit din nila yun sa wedding nila, I saw in their picture na lahat ay white, everything.
My Mom was 19 and my Dad was 22 when they got married. In the middle of the summer sinagawa yung wedding nila. Everything was so perfect on that day. I was there, too. On my Mom’s tummy. Ang kwento saken ng Dad ko, Mom was the only child. Mom’s father was dying, so pinapakasal ni Grandma si Mom kay Dad nung nabuntis nya ‘to. Wala namang masama nun dahil mahal nila ang isa’t isa. But still they’re too young, that’s why she.. she died dahil masyado pa syang bata para manganak.
Ngayon nga napapaisip ako, kasi yung mga teenager ngayon at the age of 16 nagkakaanak na, bakit hindi nakayanan ng Mommy ko? Dad didn’t say anything pag nagtatanong ako. It’s so unfair. Edi sana may Mommy pa ako ngayon, edi sana kasama ko syang magshopping, edi sana kasama ko sya pag inlove at heartbroken ako. Edi sana.. sana hindi naghahanap si Dad nang stepmom.
Tahimik lang si Dad, maybe he’s trying to remember his memories with Mom. Pero ako, I don’t have any. It made me sad that I didn’t get a chance to grow up with my Mom. Siguro masaya syang maging Mommy.
"Let’s go sweetie.” Sabi ni Dad.
“Go ahead Dad. Susunod ako.” Naglakad na palayo si Dad, I sat down in the fresh green grass. The wind blew hard and it smelled like pine and roses. It smells like my Moms clothes locked in her closet.
“Mom?” I whispered. “Are you here?” I felt something in my hands. Di ako natakot. I knew with that, Mom’s here beside me. “Oh Mom, how I wish you’re here with me. Alam mo bang gusto ka nang palitan ni Dad?! Nakakainis sya. Multuhin mo nga para matigil na sya. Oh Mom, what it is like to be with you.” Medyo nararamdaman kong nagiinit na yung mukha ko. “Mom.. I really love you.” I felt warm breeze all over my body. Maybe she’s hugging me. Oh God, why did You..
