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200. Extreme Makeover

200. Extreme Makeover: Imagine how life might be different if you could change your hair color or clothing into something completely opposite from your current style.

Do you ever feel tempted to be bad?

I'm don't mean in a joking way. I mean do you ever feel like letting go and being all that you hold yourself back from being, even at the expense at who you have strove to be? Do you ever want to release the restraints you place on your tongue, on your actions, and on what you want?

I do.

Sometimes... sometimes I want to speak my mind and stop with the tact. I want to yell at people what I truly think of them, instead of being kind even if I think they are horrible. I want to be blunt and painfully honest. I want to say what I want.

Sometimes I want to be lazy and let other people take the responsibility off of me, simply because I refuse to carry it. I want to lay in bed all day and let everyone work their butts off to afford me that life.

Sometimes I want to focus more on that darker side of myself: the side that writes secret poetry about heartbreak and pain, that loves the smoothness of black, that is capable of evil with no conscience.

I know myself and I scare myself. I can do terrible things. I can be a terrible person. I can make others' lives terrilble. Do you ever get scared of that person you could one day become? Do you ever worry about your persent self not being strong enough to keep that possible self at bay?

Do you?

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A/N: 200.

UPDATE FROM DAY 201: I reached the maximum number of story parts! You can only have 200... 😭 I had wondered this: How many parts did Wattpad allow you? It's 200, in case you were wondering. Darn. So this will be the last for this book, I guess, and the rest will be in a separate book. It's too bad! I was hoping one story would be able to fit all 365 Days! I'll link the second part in the comments.