I woke up a bit later than normal on Saturday morning. My days off normally consisted of going out and buying my food for the week or just general cleaning. This would be the first time in months I would be going off of my normal routine and to be honest, it felt nice. I had planned to sort of distance myself from Jessica after this whole dinner thing but she’s texted me every day since the night we met.
She made me sort of rethink this mindset I’ve been holding onto. When I moved out here I had planned to distance myself from people as much as possible. I didn’t want to ever really care for someone ever again but my original goal was to make a new life for myself. Maybe it wouldn’t hurt to have a friend but there’s no way I was going to just let my guard down. Jessica seems really sweet but I have to remember that I don’t really know much about her. I needed to protect myself and that’s what I intend to do.
I finally decided to get out of bed and shower. I really needed to unwind and gather my thoughts for the day ahead. As I let the hot water run over me I let my mind wander. I wonder what Jessica’s intentions were with all this. Did she want us to be friends or was she just being nice? Like I said, we texted every single day since the night we met. We never talked about anything heavy, just random general texts like telling the other how our day was. I don’t know why I’m dwelling on this so much. What would be so bad about having her as a friend? Of course she would probably drop me as soon as she found out the real reason I moved here. Everyone else did after all.
I pushed the thought out of my head as I finally shut the water off. I just needed to keep my cool and everything would be fine, right? I wrapped myself in a towel and walked into my bedroom to attempt to find something suitable to wear. When I moved here I only packed enough stuff that would fit into my two suitcases so I didn’t have much.
I found some jeans that were still in pretty good shape and a decent looking long-sleeved top. I guess that would have to do. I put the shirt on and then the jeans, noticing immediately they were quite a bit looser than they were before. Definitely need to find something that will help me keep the weight on. The fact that I walk everywhere I go combined with me just low on extra money for food was just causing me to lose more weight than I needed. I’d be doing so good if I could get more twelve hour shifts but unfortunately that wasn’t always the case. I’ve been thinking about trying to find a second job and maybe that’s what I needed to do.
After taking out everything I needed to somewhat tame my hair, I sat down at the end of my bed. I needed to start now because I knew it would take forever just to dry it let alone do something with it.
A good hour later I was halfway through curling my hair into neat waves when my phone went off indicating that I had a text. I set down my curling iron and unlocked my phone to see a text from Jessica.
‘Hey Elena just wondering if you’re allergic to anything x’
I smiled at how thoughtful she was and quickly typed my reply.
‘Not that I know of. Do I need to bring anything with me?’
I thought I should ask just in case. I felt a bit guilty that Jessica was doing all the work and all I was doing was showing up. I could stop and get something on the way if I needed to. I got a reply almost immediately.
‘Just yourself babe x’
I shrugged to myself and set my phone down, determined to finish with my hair. My hair was waist length and always has been since I can remember. It might do me some good to cut a good eight inches off but I just could never bring myself to do it.
When I finally finished with my hair I checked the time and saw it was already three-thirty. It would take me almost an hour and a half to walk to Jessica’s house so I might as well get going. I pulled on my trainers and got my only coat out of the closet. I braced myself for the cold as I opened the door and stepped out.
