As I woke up from yet another long sleep I immediately noticed that this one felt different. I felt well-rested and a million times more comfortable than I have in a while and I obviously knew why. I opened my eyes to see Jess fast asleep beside me, or should I say below me as I’ve somehow ended up lying half on top of her during the night.
I loosened Jess’s hold on me slightly so I could move off of her but only slightly. I left my face rested in the crook of her neck and let out a contented sigh. I still felt like shit but having Jess here made me feel a million times better. I was careful not to move too much more as I laid there and listened to her quiet breathing as she slept.
Right so I was going to admit it to myself now. I definitely liked Jess. As in, I like her way more than a friend but there’s no way I was going to admit that out loud. Especially not to her, only to ruin what we did have but I’ve just never met anyone like her. No one has ever made me feel this happy by just simply being here and it’s safe to say I could never get her out of my head.
I sat up slowly so I wouldn’t disturb her and sat on the edge of the bed. I put my head in my hands trying to get a handle on things. Why did Jess have to be so damn perfect? Who the hell am I to her anyway? I’m sure she could have anyone she wants and well, I’m me.
I shook the thoughts out of my head and decided I should get motivated seeing as I was being forced to go to the doctor today. It was super early so I’m sure I had a long while until Jess woke up which would be the perfect opportunity to surprise her with breakfast. I know I have no food but I’m sure I’ll have enough time to walk to the store for something small and get back before she even notices.
I tied my hair up seeing as I couldn’t be bothered with brushing it right this second, and headed out of my room to the kitchen to see what I actually did have there. As soon as I walked in I stopped and stared in shock. I actually couldn’t believe what I was seeing.
There was a ton of food organized on my counter tops and when I opened the cupboards I discovered that they were stocked to their limit with everything you could possibly think of. I back up slowly and opened the fridge hesitantly, already knowing what I would find. The fridge was completely full.
I felt tears stinging my eyes as I fully realized what Jess had done. She just bought me enough food to last me weeks, maybe a couple months seeing as I didn’t eat much as it is. I couldn’t even feel defensive about it because I knew Jess didn’t just do it out of pity for me. I know by now that she does the things she does simply because she does care about me. Maybe not in the way I want her to but I would take it any day.
But why me? What is it that she somehow sees in me that would make her want to actually spend time with me and do things like this for me. Especially when I have no way of returning the favor.
I took a deep, calming breath just to try to shake off the shock of all this. I came in here to make Jess breakfast and that’s exactly what I was going to do. If I couldn’t pay her back materialistically then I sure as hell was going to make sure she knew I appreciated everything she’s done.
I rummaged through all the food until I found everything I needed. In what seemed like no time at all I had a plate full of pancakes, bacon, and eggs for Jess. It’s been months since I’ve actually cooked real food and I didn’t even realize how much I’ve missed doing that. Once I had everything plated, I set aside a small amount for myself and carried out plates into my room, setting them on the bedside table like Jess had done the night before.
Jess was still sound asleep and I almost didn’t want to wake her up. I almost didn’t but it was already going on ten and I wasn’t sure if she had other plans today.
