Chapter Eleven
It took me nearly three hours to walk home, and by the time I'd walked through the front door I was drenched. Liam was sitting on the couch when I entered.
"Li?" I asked, and he turned his attention to me.
"Niall! Thank god you're okay!" Liam was quick to his feet, throwing his arms around my neck and pulling me close.
"Why wouldn't I be?"
"Harry called and said you took off from the hospital, and then it started raining.... You wouldn't pick up your phone, and you'd be gone for hours so I got worried."
"Harry called?"
"Yeah... Niall you shouldn't have run off like that."
"I had every right to run off like that. Did you know what he did Liam?"
"Niall... I knew to an extent, but he didn't tell me much."
"But you knew, and still chose not to tell me."
"Ni..."
"Don't fucking Ni me." I pulled Liam off of me, my eyes narrowing at who I thought was my best friend.
"Niall, you have to understand that I was only trying to protect you..."
"Protect me?! You fucking saw how I was without him Liam, and you let me sit there and beg for him.... You watched as I fell apart a little more everyday without him, and you never thought to tell me where he was?! Or what the fuck he did?! You're not the Liam I know, you're someone else."
"Niall... You're being unreasonable."
"No! I have every fucking right to be unreasonable about this! You kept something from me Liam, when I thought we told each other everything... You allowed for me to stay broken, and I know you had no intention of fixing me."
"I was trying to protect you! I didn't want you to see it, I didn't want him to come back Niall, in fact I told him to stay away."
"You did one hell of a job of keeping him away didn't you!"
"I didn't know he was coming back! Hell I didn't even know he had a kid with her until he showed up with the damn sonagram!"
"But you still knew, that's the thing Liam, you knew."
"You wouldn't have believed me anyways Niall! You were so damn caught up in the fact that he left you, that if I gave you the reason why you would've called me a liar." I bit my lip, knowing he was right.
Liam was always right, even if I didn't want to believe it.
"I love him Liam... I love him so damn much, but I don't want to. I don't want to love him, I want to hate him. I want to let him go, but I've tried that... I've tried forgetting him, and I just can't... Why can't I forget how he made me feel?" I begged, dropping to my knees where I finally just let all out.
Tears of frustration and sadness left my eyes as I sobbed, and Liiam was quick to pull me into his arms.
"You've been trying to forget him in the wrong ways Ni... I know what it's like to think that getting drunk till you can't remember your own name will help you forget the pain... but it doesn't. It just makes it worse. I don't want to see you get stuck in that dark place Niall... I don't want to see you finally give up and let those demons in.... I can't let it happen."
"Why not? It's easier that way isn't it?"
"Because I can't lose you, and you can't lose me."
"I'd be doing everyone a favor Liam... I'm not needed here anymore. You've got Zayn to take care of you now."
"I still need you Ni..."
"No one needs me Liam." I whispered, and pulled out of his embrace. I climbed up off the floor, and when Liam tried to grab me again I only shrugged him off. .
"Niall... Look at me." I shook my head, instead I started to walk towards my room. I ignored the calls of my name coming from Liam, and when I reached my room I made sure to lock my door. I walked into the small bathroom that adjoined it.
My eyes connected with the demon on the other side, and I couldn't help but throw my head back in laughter.
Tick tock goes the clock.
It ticks and it tocks
Taunting the person destined to forever listen to the ticking clock.
Tick tock
Tick
Tock.
"Why would he want you anyways? You're nothing." I whispered at my reflection, still laughing a little... It was too damn funny wasn't it.
It's like a bomb, waiting to go off.
Tick
Tock
Tick
Tock.
Goes the clock
Waiting for the bomb to pop.
"You aren't ever going to be good enough, nor were you ever. You should've just killed yourself when you had the chance don't you think?"
"Shut up... Shut up shut up!" I threw my hands over my ears, but my eyes stayed connected with my reflection. My reflection throws his head back, laughing hysterically.
Tick tock goes the clock, waiting for the heart to stop.
Tick
Tock
Tick to the
Fucking tock
Why won't my heart stop?
Is it tuned to the obsessive ticking and tocking?
So should it not stop when the ticking and tocking stops?
Or is it doomed to listen to the ticking and the tocking of the ticking clock forever?
"Can you hear that Niall? Do you hear the tick tock of the clock?"
"Please... Make it stop!" I cried out, dropping to my knees and closing my eyes.
"Tick tock... Tick tock... Do you know what the ticking of the clock means Niall?" I shook my head, begging for it to end.
"Useless.... Pathetic... That's what you are Niall..."
"No!" I screamed, and my fist hit the mirror, making it shatter around my feet.
Tick tock
Goes the clock
It ticks and it tocks....
Till the bomb finally drops.
Tick tock
The truth will soon come out.
Tick tock.
Maybe then my heart will stop....
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Merp.... I don't even know.
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